February 20, 2018

Kono Oto Tomare [Chapter 66 - Fill In]


During junior high, three guys called out to Natsu and asked if he can’t increase the number of times he goes for band practice. Natsu asked huh. The leader of the three said that he is saying that Natsu is indeed quite amazing but the band should be...

“It is something that everyone should work hard together at! Don’t look at us like that. Actually, we are also very serious.” Natsu said that about that, he knows it after listening to their performance. 

The boy said then how come Natsu doesn’t come to practice more often. “Are you looking down on us?” After looking surprised, Natsu smiled and said that if after they heard him perform and they think that way, then that’s how it is. The three boys look flustered. End flashback. 
At the bar, Glasses boss says so Natsu quit the club. Natsu says yes. “I heard that right now, they found a passionate drummer who can practice with them everyday. For them, that new person is more suitable.”

Narration: “In the end, majority of people would not put importance to something that is actually ‘more serious’. Rather, it is more on ‘what seems to be more serious’. Compared to the result, they’ll put importance to the process so the more time spent together the better it is...

...Only if we sufficiently spend a long time together, then one would be able to sufficiently have confidence in someone.” Natsu tells Glasses boss that he really cannot understand that kind of thinking.
Glasses boss says that ‘free and unconstrained’ suits him more. “Whether or not you join that band, you’ll soon have disagreements. Inevitably, an outstanding drummer will have a place. It isn’t necessary for you to force yourself to join that club.” Natsu smiles and says yes, he also thought that way. 

Narration: “Being too close with people would make me feel very tired. Being together for a long time also suffocates me. Even if it doesn’t show but I want to be alone and I also don’t want to change myself.” 
Flashback: He walked at the shopping mall and heard Tokize’s koto concert. He remembered gloomy bruised Chika with his gang before. And now, Chika is smiling as he played. End flashback.

“It’s just...it’s just that the moment I witnessed a person’s dramatic change, I simply had a curiosity. WHAT THING is in there [club] that made a person undergo such a huge change? It’s just a whim. *looks at koto club signboard* aimlessly I extend my hand...

...*He opens the door and sees everyone’s flustered expression which is the same as his ex-club members. He looks at the side.* So, even if after I opened that door and there is nothing there, I also won’t be disappointed. I only need to close the door and once again return to the ordinary days of my life. That’s all there is to it.”
At the meeting, Takezou says that he thinks that they shouldn’t let Natsu join the Nationals. Everyone is quiet. Hiro glances at flustered Kouta. She says that she agrees. Sane also agrees even if doing this doesn’t make him feel quite good.

Michi says but like this, it is inevitable. “Even if it is according to his mood and we keep him but in the end, it will definitely not have a good outcome--...” Kouta says that he thinks that Natsu’s rokudan today has undoubtedly passed.
Hiro tries to call out to him but Kouta continues to say that it is true that Natsu didn’t practice but from the start, he already said that he has to work for three days in a week.

“It isn’t because he looked down on the koto so he didn’t come to club practice. Rather, I think he doesn’t need my coaching so he didn’t come. Even if I’m stupid but I still know that.”

Hiro says but if it is like that, all the more Natsu isn’t qualified. “I cannot agree on practicing together with someone who looks down on you. I cannot do it.”
Kouta tells her that if Natsu performed casually, he would also feel that they shouldn’t let him join the Nationals. “But Momoyan played VERY SERIOUSLY. From the very start, what we told them is ‘the PERFORMANCE after a week [of practice] will be the basis’...

...Right now, they’ve passed. If it is because of practice attitude that one will fail then from the start we should have told them about it.” Takezou and Hiro look tense. Hiro mutters Kouta’s name. Satowa asks if Kouta feels that they should let Natsu join the Nationals.

Kouta says regarding that, sorry, he also doesn’t know. “—but, after listening to Momoyan’s performance, I felt very frustrated. Even if he is also one of the club members but I don’t want to lose to him. If Momoyan is around, I feel that I can play better.”
Everyone looks surprised. Chika suddenly holds Kouta’s head and exclaims that lately, he started to become quite cool!! After looking surprised, Kouta smiled. Soon, they thank and bid Shizu goodbye.

While walking behind the others, Hiro confides to Takezou that she feels that until now, she doesn’t quite know Kouta and it’s also the same during the training last year. “Everyone is a lot more amazing than I imagined. They’ll reflect on so many things. There are times when I feel ashamed of myself.”

Takezou tells her that she is simply paying attention to people whom she cares the most. “If you were to say that, then as club president, there are a lot of things that I didn’t do.” He screams that it hurts when Hiro suddenly hits him hard on the back.
As Hiro walks ahead, he asks her what’s up... She turns to him and says that if he isn’t the club president then they won’t have this current koto club. After looking surprised, he smiles. He asks what to do tomorrow.

Hiro says who knows, they won’t know until tomorrow. Takezou lets out a laugh. Hiro tensely asks what it is. He tells her that it’s nothing and he just feels that she’s very good as vice-president.

Classes are over. After packing his bag, Atsumu tensely thinks that they’ll announce the result of the test on today’s club activity. He looks at Natsu who is sitting in front of him. He thinks that Natsu absolutely passed it.

“Even if he didn’t practice, he also played better than me. Really amazing... We are the only first year students. It is rare that we are in the same class and he is even sitting in front. He can also talk ordinarily with me... If we can go to the Nationals together--”
His thoughts were interrupted by a girl calling out to Natsu. The girl hugs Natsu from behind and says that she came to get him. Natsu calls out to her as Mika. While Atsumu blushes over the two, Mika asks if they are going home together today.

Natsu pats her head and apologizes for today is club... He stops and thinks no, it is already unnecessary for him to go. “Anyway, I already know the result. I’m not good in dealing with it if I intentionally go and spoil the mood.”

He holds Mika’s shoulder and smiles. He says that he doesn’t care anymore so let’s go. Mika says that’s great Atsumu looks surprised. He suddenly grabs Natsu’s sleeve. After looking surprised, Natsu smiles and asks what it is.
Snapping out of it, Atsumu apologizes. While wondering what’s up with himself, Atsumu says ah, bu...but, today is the day when he can go join the club activity, right?

“Ah, if you...you have something to do... I’ll help you pass the message on... (wh..what to do...won’t he feel that I’m quite meddlesome...) Mo...momoyan-kun, if you didn’t come at this time, Mizu...Mizuhara-senpai will be very worried about you...so, so about that...”

Natsu notices that Atsumu is trembling. Later on, the two are walking to the clubroom. Atsumu timidly asks if he isn’t angry. Natsu says no. Natsu thinks that if it is Oka, he’ll straightforwardly ignore him.

“But this guy’s psychological ability to bear with it is quite bad. Not only that, if I didn’t go [chibi Kouta] will send a pile of messages on LINE. It doesn’t matter anymore. I’ll go one more time today and bluntly settle this.”
At the club, Suzuka says okay, everyone is all present. He asks Takezou if they have already decided regarding the members who’ll participate in the Nationals. Takezou says yes. “OUR SIDE has already decided.” Wondering about ‘our side’, Suzuka asks what the result is.

Atsumu looks nervous when Takezou looks at him and Natsu. Takezou calls out their names and says that they both passed. Atsumu blushes and looks quite surprised. Natsu looks surprised but it isn’t quite shown on his expression. Takezou says, but, Momoya-kun.

While asking what is it, Natsu smiles and thinks ah, it is that ‘even if you passed the test but--’ type of thing... Takezou says that whether or not he’ll join the Nationals, he has to decide it for himself. Natsu goes eh.
Takezou tells him that he had passed the test so he has the right to join. “But we can only say this much as the final say. The one who’ll decide whether you’ll join or not, is you yourself.”

Natsu thinks, “So, it’s like that. It means, ‘if we were to eliminate you off, it will feel quite bad so we want you to forfeit by yourself’--...” Natsu looks speechless as he sees everyone looking at him with determined anticipation.

Natsu reminds them that he cannot come for three days in a week. Hiro tells him that they already know that. Natsu says that whether it is after class or even morning practice, he also cannot join them. Hiro says, they know.
After a pause, Natsu tells them that he told them from the start, any will do. “Whether they don’t have enough people or if he joins and it will just be too many people that it won’t be balanced. *smiles* Whether I’ll go or I’ll stay, senpai-s decide it in accordance to the situation. It is okay with me either way--”

Kouta calls out, “Momoyan, right now, we are asking what are your thoughts [on it]. *Natsu looks surprised* If you were to participate in the Nationals, your four days in a week of time will be occupied. Because our goal is to be number one, it is necessary that we have a bit of consensus...

...But, we won’t be responsible regarding your time and your life. It is also impossible for us to give back to you the time [you spent] afterwards. So, regarding your own issue, you properly decide on it by yourself.”
Natsu looks at him then says, “...I’ll participate.” Everyone looks surprised including Natsu who seems surprised by what he said. Kouta smiles over this. He grabs the two new members’ hands and greets them ‘yoroshiku’ again. Everyone smiles over this.

While Natsu seems to look stunned, Atsumu calls out to him. Teary-eyed and blushing, Atsumu says that they do their best together. Then, he runs to Chika who congratulates him. Natsu thinks, no way, what did he say--...‘I’ll participate’.
Natsu asks Kouta if he feels that it is appropriate for him to join the Nationals. Kouta asks if he is asking him, ‘would I be unhappy together with the senpai who looks down on himself?’

Natsu looks surprised. Kouta laughs and says that honestly speaking, he is very unhappy. “I even wildly complained yesterday— but, your performance is REALLY QUITE SERIOUS [earnest]. *turns around* So, there’s no problem.”
After a pause, Natsu calls out to Kouta and thanks him for sending him that Rokuden performance video. Kouta asks what, saying that kind of words right now-- Natsu tells him that he watched it 50 times a day.

Kouta looks at serious Natsu. He recalls Natsu telling him before that he would listen to it repeatedly and at time, he’ll practice using his imagination.

He also recalled Natsu saying that he can properly play it thanks to him. This made Kouta smile. Akira says that in the end, they have 9 people. Suzuka says it looks like it. Akira asks what he plans to do regarding the piece. Slightly amused Suzuka says ya, what to do.
Gesturing to their poster with a ‘going for no. 1 for the Nationals’, Sane says that it wasn’t easy to have new members joining. He urges the two to write something ON TOP here. Excited Atsumu exclaims if he really can!!? Natsu says that he’ll pass.

Holding the marker pen, Atsumu asks what he will write. Chika asks if Atsumu himself doesn’t know then how about writing ‘!’. Michi tells him to also sign his name. Atsumu says okay. Excited Atsumu thinks that this is so amazing that he can leave his name at the koto club that he longed for. He then gives the marker to Natsu who says so he’s saying that he won’t—
Sparkling Atsumu says that he is super super happy that he can leave his name like this and it is the first time. Natsu thinks that it has anything to do with him. Atsumu puts the marker in Natsu’s hand and says, here! Natsu looks at the marker.

While the others are watching and chatting, Natsu prepares to write on the poster. Narration: “After closing the door, I don’t know why but I find myself standing within [the room]. I also don’t know what’s the importance [/meaning] of leaving behind my name.”
Comment: Apparently, Natsu had already experienced being ‘kicked out’ from a club due to his few club attendances. He assumed that just because the koto club members had the same frustrated-flustered expression as his ex-bandmates, they also want to ‘kick him’ out.

I get a feeling that Natsu isn’t too honest with himself or perhaps, he’s just unaware of it. He claims that he is okay with being all alone and he won’t be disappointed if he didn’t get in but from his actions, it doesn’t seem that way.

He seems to want to change after seeing Chika’s drastic change. He was beating his drums quite vigorously when he thinks that he’ll be ‘kicked out’ from the club just like before because he played quite well without practice. But, he is indeed underestimating this Tokize club.

Even if Kouta was the one whom the others think will benefit from not letting Natsu join, he ends up the one who wants Natsu to join. Instead of having negative emotions about someone who is better than him, Kouta decided to put a positive attitude towards it. That is Natsu’s performance will encourage Kouta to perform better.

And, Kouta is right. They only told the two that they’ll be ‘judge’ based on the performance. It won’t be the number of times one attends the club activity. And, Kouta noticed something that Natsu’s ex-bandmates didn’t notice. Natsu was serious in his performance.

There’s also a nice little pep talk between Takezou and Hiro especially since they felt that they didn’t handle that situation well. For Atsumu to stop Natsu from leaving takes a lot of guts. It makes me think that because Atsumu is like that, Natsu cannot easily refuse him like he usually does with Oka.

Anyway, what the others did is nice. They made Natsu decide for himself so that they’ll know that he is committing himself to this rather than he is ‘forced’ to join. They want this to be a ‘mutual’ thing wherein they want him to join and he wants to join.

Well, apparently, Natsu is just different in his way of ‘practicing’. Later on, we’ll know if they can pull this kind of situation off. That is to play as a group even if one of them cannot always practice with them. Hm...perhaps, Suzuka can put in more solo parts for him?

For now, it seems that Natsu is still bewildered over what he said and is doing. It will take a bit of time for it to all sink in. That is, he finally found a place that accepts his ‘conditions’ to be with them. Atsumu is more aware of it so he is quite moved and everything. Scans by 二次元秘店

Word of the day:
Only Jesus can fill us with a sense of belonging like we’ve never known before. ~ Our Daily Bread

36 comments:

  1. Thank you for the hard work. Really happy with the development.
    Natsu's motivation and background surprised me. Initially he gave the vibes of a playboy and non serious person, but you can never judge a book by it's cover. So, his isolation is not his own choice and he also has a hard time being honest about what he actually wants. Even though he says he doesn't want to change, he is intrigued by Chika's 'transformation'. He is easily misunderstood and doesn't bothers to clear it up. He clearly has major communication issues.
    Also I wonder if author will put some romance between Natsu and Satowa, just so to rile Chika up. ^^

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    1. Hey, I like 'fluffy' Mika and hope she sticks around, maybe this could be the first time Natsu gets serious about a relationship since his participation will eat about even more of his time, and you'll wonder if she'll stick around for that :)

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    2. Thanks for reading, Anonymous ^-^

      Indeed.

      Not too sure. I get a feeling that Satowa can easily shoot down his advances. =P

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  2. Interesting, we made progress though we aren't quite there yet in resolving all of Natsu's issues, which I'm okay with right now. He's going to be a tougher nut to crack and it'll need to be a more slow evolution as he's further exposed to this environment.

    Anyway, now that everyone's committed at least I look forward to A) More romantic fluff and B) what Suzuka pulls out of his behind to adapt everyone into the final piece. I wonder if we can combine the two to put more focus on him and get some bonding moments between him and Akira as he figures it out. Given they're new members now and they haven't practiced as a single unit yet, he's still got significant work to do. I'm looking forward to a few chapters devoted to this process if that's the case, especially if again we get some shipping moments between him and Akira along the way :D

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    1. Yup, KrimzonStriker. That will probably be left for later. Yup.

      Hm...I always get the impression/so far, Suzuka has been composing alone. But it will be interesting to see if it becomes a team work between the two.

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  3. woah thanks for the summary, I really misjudged natsu so badly (don't look at my review for the last chapter), interesting how i said natsu made fun of kouta yet kouta was the reason he stayed in the club i'm amazed by kouta's maturity and just like chika said kouta is cool sometimes ! and i'm actually amazed that he have seen natsu's seriousness , also i liked how they gave natsu th choice because it seems to me that he really wants to be a part of a group yet he thinks the only way to fit in is if everyone took advantage of his abilities rather than being on friendly basis with everyone i'm quite glad tokoise club is different (which honestly considering it's history and the different personalities it has it should be an expected thing) atsumu i also courageous for bringing natsu to the club even though he is bad with interacting with people i honestly think that both atsumu with his timid personality and kouta with his playful personality will be the reason for natsu to change, and it's great to know that chika indirectly was the reason for him to join the club i mean i'm amazed too how far chika come . hiro and takezou are really fun i like how she says who knows what will happen tomorrow i like this sort of leadership were they take things easily but i liked it more when she told takezou that this club wouldn't be here today if it wasn't for him since takezou is the type to think he is useless when he really did many good things so i'm glad both the president and the vice president are good at encouraging each other since both of them are bad at seeing their own good points. this chapter's highlight was definitely kouta i'm quite ashamed that i too judged without seeing both sides of the story .

    thank you

    Emmahoshi

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    1. Thanks for reading, Emmahoshi ^-^

      Yup, I agree.

      Hehe, and that seemed casual...if they only knew that they also had romantic feelings for each other. ^^

      Indeed, Kouta looks cool and mature here.

      =)

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  4. Thanks for the summary 😊 I'm sick with shingles right now and in excruciating pain, but reading your summary made me happy and temporarily forget about my illness. THANKS Again!!!

    PS: if you've never had chicken pox, please get the vaccine! I had chicken pox at 18 years old and that was a hassle (fever and itchy) but shingles (chicken pox virus reactivated) is really hard to have and has so many complications (nerve pain being one of them).

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    1. Thanks for reading, Anon0o0 ^-^

      Oh...get well soon.

      Alas, I cannot have the live vaccine due to my current health condition and I did have chicken pox twice. ^^;;

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    2. Thank you. Do you mind if I ask what health condition you're under?

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    3. I had a kidney transplant.

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    4. Thank you for sharing and I hope you are doing better. I had a friend who was born with kidney problem and dialysis was really hard for her until she had the surgery. I hope you get healthy fast. Lots of love 💙

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  5. Can't wait to see their performance at Nationals. Hopefully Natu's employers will give him the okay to take time off to go. Plus it'll be good promotion for the business, having a worker that's #1 in the nation, to capitalize on.

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    1. Ya, Lidy ^^

      If Glasses boss & bar, is the part time work he's doing, then it's possible ^^ If it isn't music related, chance is quite slim.

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  6. I did like this chapter. Seems Natsu 'knew' Chika and so, seeing that amazing change, without even knowing he himself wanted to change too, gave a try. It's pretty good and goes under the normal waters the usual manga tend to.

    Really like this chapter, but him saying he saw that video more than 50 times made me wonder if he really have the perfect hearing we were talking about some days ago. Doesn't change the fact that he has quite the talent which he was born with, and mind training really does wonders, I'd know since that's how I learned most of the instruments I play 'cause at the time I just couldn't afford'em.

    Anyway, I'm pretty glad I took the time to read, even being tired and really thankful you summarized, more like transcribed the chapter for us. Thanks, Kat!
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    Now, what my other post'd have that made it go to spam? I mean, I didn't curse or anything. Maybe the number of lines?
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    I bet they didn't pay for anything. People just suck it up to famous people for some reason.

    And impress vote is when you vote in paper/ballots. Yea, it takes a hell of more time, but it seems to be more secure than the other way. I personally don't know, and since I always null my vote... And wow, teachers really have it rough everywhere, uh? That's one of the reasons I always decline working in the elections, don't need any more problem, already have more than enough, lol.

    Yea, here's the same, though most don't know 'cause, like I said some time ago, their names are pretty common so most'd go unnoticed, unless it's a weird name. And the vote for laws to be approved occurs the same way. Really sad truth that seems to be true in anywhere, too.

    It's mandatory here, too. But I don't know if they really survey that way, or if it's being mandatory they can ensure that the population does, in some way or another, what they want - since if they MUST vote unless they don't want those things I told you before too happen, so the gov has a way of control over the people even if the people themselves don't want such things. In the disarmament referendum, the gov. didn't do what the people wanted, which were to not be disarmed. So, yea, who knows...
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    But why Sho wouldn't want him anywhere near her, if not for jealousy or fear of him making a move and being successful in some way? Since Yuki is so Yuki... Anyway, like I said, those things are so common that it pisses me off just having the possibility, lol.
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    I couldn't read more than the first two chapters, though I tried watching the anime and gave up midway, too. It's 'cause with Boruto - the series - the cycle that the author passed the whole manga writing about, is once again 'alive', and doing that just make entire past story mean nothing, especially with the Naruto's death being foretold right off the bat in the first chapter. They didn't really break the cycle so all sacrifices were in vain, is what I get from Boruto series.

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      I don't know what the author's going for, can't see that, whilst I could in Claymore, in Shingeki I just can't. It's too cluttered right now, imo, that is. It did start off like a tragedy/horror manga, it did change after 9ch and after the anime the author himself declared he'd change somethings so the fans wouldn't complain nor be saddened or send him death threats and such.
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      The whole manga, tbh. There're a lot of tragedy right from the start and even more to come, but like I said, if it's not your thing, you shouldn't press forwards, though it's an amazing story, imo. Maybe it just hit too near home for me, or just tore my home apart, lol.
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      Aaah, that'd be so awesome, but no. Although I already have all the exams needed for surgery, I'll have to redo all of them and then go to the doctor from my public health care - which is the one that said I didn't need surgery, but didn't even look at my exams, and do everything again, like if it was the first time. Such is fate, I guess?
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      Thanks again, Kat.

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    2. 'normal' waters = Natsu is related to Chika?

      Most likely not. I think it is more on 'imaging' it than hearing it. It has to be demonstrated to him. Yet, he also needs a music sheet. Wow, that's amazing. You know, sometimes I wish I'm really good in piano. Why? Because then there's a storm here and there's no electricity, I want to play some haunting music ala Dracula. Lol

      =) Thanks for reading, Fê ^-^

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      I don't think it is the length.

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      Ah, are this famous people celebrities? Like famous actors/actresses? So the people are fans?

      Yup.

      I see.

      Okay. I would think it is to their advantage if it is mandatory since people can be apathetic and don't vote. So, there should be a reason for it. Since you mentioned about that referendum, voting seems to be just an 'illusion' of doing something...lol, more of a suggestion. Ah, why would they have it in referendum in the first place if they don't want it?

      Here, politicians won't move at all if it isn't their interests. And if it is, they'll really move heaven and earth just to rush a bill even if it isn't properly studied. One of their current men even said that people cannot be trusted to vote on such serious issues since they're stupid. That is funny because these same people are the ones who voted for them to be in the government. =P

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      Hehe...I guess it is because I don't think of Shizuka is a threat and don't try anything quite serious. I'm thinking that if everyone is the same as they are, I would suggest that a way to solve this is make Yuki quit the club so that it would lessen the chances of any interaction with Shizuka. Of course, that won't happen.

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      I see.

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      Hehe, is that so. Fans = king.

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      Maybe that's it. I took a peek at chapter 12 to see if I'll like it enough to back read but not really... It's okay though.

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      Hm...kind of like 'groundhog day'? Keep repeating without any end/result. Is there a high probability that a different doctor will look at them to give the go signal for the surgery?

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    3. Normal water is more like the cliched/safe zone some authors thread, this one seems to want beyond that, and I'm loving it.

      Yea, people who has this awesome gift don't really need to practice a lot or put too much effort in it, though you always need to practice at least a little, otherwise, you just won't do sh*t, right? Aah, we have a name for the imagination practice: Air+instrumenta. Like, if you're learning guitar=air guitar. If you're learning piano, you'd play air piano - sliding your fingers into nothing like a crazy mad woman, lol. The better part yet it's I'm not joking, it's actually a thing. My friend was learning violin, so we'd catch him more than often sliding his fingers and moving his air bow into nothing, lol. Can't make much fun of him 'cause, like I said, most instruments I learned was by doing that, so, air-cello, air-bass, air-guitar - just like a scary mad ogre, lol.

      Dracula, huh? And that's 'cause you're bad with horror movies, right? lol. But I get you, my friend used to play the Exorcist song whenever we spend t he night in his house, at 3am and those who'd wake up'd be scared sh*tless, lol. Those were some fun times, I tell you, lol.
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      What else could it be? I mean, I didn't curse not wrote anything 'spamable', did I?
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      A couple of celebrities, they host some popular shows, or used, I don't watch tv so I just heard this radio guy, that it's not famous like them, complaining.
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      Yea, and well, a democracy where the gov demands the people to do something isn't really a democracy, right? We should have the right to not wanting to vote, in your case, is even worse, you should at least have the right to null your vote in order to demonstrate your dissatisfaction. They did the referendum hoping people'd be on 'their side/buy their talk', like we they did to see if Britain'd exit the UE, then got surprised when the results came out - but here, instead of hearing and abiding to the people's will, they just chose to ignore, since it wasn't an official election and some years later, came up with a law that restricts even more the possession of any kind of weapon. Funny thing is, the criminals are better armed than the police and the national army...
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      To me, it'd at least be more bearable if Yuki put Shizuka down for good, like, you're just a friend, I love Sho and that won't change - something like that.
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      Yea, something like that. I remember some people were pretty pissed at him 'cause they wanted the 'original' story, and now he was 'chickening out', others were glad that maybe there'd be hope for some of their fav. chars to survive, and others, like me, were just, meh.
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      I've read only 'till 9ch, that's all that were translated 'till now. It's just that, hotheaded young boy looking out for his sibling hit home like a comet, lol. Though I started to work and look after mine way before him, I kinda relate to why he always pissed and the bad things that happen to him is mostly 'cause of his situation, so it's easy to misunderstand and jump into to the wrong assumptions - like I said before, when I was a teenager, I as a mess, so, yea, lol.
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      Yea, the possibility is always there, but it's quite low, I mean, really low. Though, gotta persist, right? Doing anything I can to get better and hope for some kind of miracle, since I could always get better without doing the surgery, if the body manages to absolve most of the hernias that are hugely inflamed so they stop compressing most of the nerves and then I can actually use all muscles like normal, though there're other problems, the most damaging ones are those huge hernias compressing every nerve and a wearing vertebral issue - that thankfully it's not too bad yet.

      But yea, we do what we can, we must, right?

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    4. Yup...so what is the 'cliche/safe zone' type of scenario? Natsu is related to Chika?

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      Indeed. Wow. So, there's actually such a thing. I thought 'air guitar' is like pretend only. ^^; Lol, probably from a movie of two idiots who likes to do that.

      No. Laugh if you want but it is because I think it's cool. The mood is quite nice though like raining/stormy and dark. There is this organ thing that is usually played by a vampire type of character. Haha...and after scaring them, won't they go to your place to scold you guys?

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      I have no idea. Something must be triggering it.

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      I see. Well, celebrities are like that. There was this young actor who got caught with marijuana. Policewomen even take selfies with him. The guy is out now. Most likely due to connections because if not, he'll still be jail or well, if poor, shot dead. Haha...it probably helps to be handsome, too =P

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      I see. Here, not really...but the rebels are better armed. It doesn't help that the police won't fight it out but instead run away. And there were instances when traitors are 'giving the military/police weapons' to the rebels.

      About carrying weapons, let's say that it is quite easy to get one if you have connections. It is said that it is easier to obtain one illegally because the government makes it quite hard to get a legal one.

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      I see. Hm...is it possible that Yuki never thought that it was necessary since Shizuka knew she already has Shou?

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      Oh. I see. In a way, he seems a bit of a 'tsundere'? Can say mean things but acts differently. ^^;

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      Yup. Ah, why are they inflamed in the first place? Injury before? My nephews have genetic hernia. One kid had to be operated on when he was still a baby. The other one, the hernia got better.

      Indeed. Do what we can, pray and hope for the best ^-^

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    5. I'm referring to things like, I'm lonely, please realize from my actions and change me. But here, Natsu it's not even aware of that, he's like, it's all fine and then, without even realizing himself, blurts out words that he'd never say or didn't even intend to. Kinda more psychological than the normal ones, where the character is SO depicted like a loner that needs change and the hero is the only one that notices it. Here, no one seems to notice that, maybe only the glasses boss, but only to the point where he notices in Natsu's performance.
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      Yea, that's actually a thing, but that doesn't stop people for making fun of it, right? I mean, I myself make fun all the time and I do it, too, lol. Ofc, there're people that don't know what he's doing, just doing for fun, pretending to be rocking out and that's it, he doesn't know sh*t about music, but it's there, having fun by himself while pretending to be a rockstar, lol. But yea, air/guitar/instruments is a thing.

      Organ is different from piano, and afaik is 'harder' too, especially those that you're referring to, with big pipes and all - that's hella difficult to play.
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      We'll never know. Another mistery to go with the pyramids, lol.
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      Yea, it really helps having good looks + being famous. One of each already does the trick, both together is hard for you not to get what you want, don't even need brains, lol. I joke, but it's a serious thing here.
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      Here, police that try to fight ended up dead by the bandits, or in jail 'cause they can't shoot nor do anything to try to catch a criminal, if he does, the defenders of human rights will persecute them in trials and he'll lose - always. Recently, a policeman reacted to an ongoing assault, saved the hostage and the whole people around the area, shot the bandit that ended up dead in middle of treatment and now he's in jail for not respecting the human rights and doing justice with his own hands... I won't get into the matter 'cause I get to stressed over it.

      And yes, it's much easier to buy an illegal weapon than a legal on here, too.
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      I don't know, Yuki being that dense I think she never even gave a thought about it, but then, I don't really remember that well, but didn't she think that Shizuka might be interested in her sometime ago and apologized to Sho for I don't know what?
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      Yea, I wouldn't call him tsundere yet, but it'd seems like it. He's more like a really hotheaded stressed kid that had no time for himself and has a tough life, so he's thinking he has to act tough - for his sis sake - and being that way is his thinking he's acting tough.

      Kinda complicated to explain, lol.
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      I don't know why, really. It just appeared literally over night and just got worse and some bad doctors didn't know how to treat me, then it was already to this point. It never got better, but I did 'cause all the therapies I'm doing, so while the problems're still there and bad as it were before, they didn't get worse, at the very least.

      Normally, the body itself absolves the hernia, sometimes you need some kind of treatment, but only to the degree that the body heals itself, when it doesn't happen or it's too big of a hernia that the body can't absolve, then we need surgery. And my case is, have two big hernias that are not only compressing all nerves in my spine, they're also dislocating other vertebrae and moving the spine in ways it shouldn't.

      But, like I said, the private doctor is expensive as hell, and the public health care is an absolute mess and the doctors there don't care at all about you.

      So yea, we I do therapies and pray a lot, that's all I can do anyways. ^^

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    6. I see. Kind of not the usual emo type?

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      Haha, I see. Actually most people would think one is crazy if one does that, right?
      Say, stand on the street and do it.

      Ya.

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      I agree. And if you have fans, they'll help/justify one's stupidity.

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      I don't recall such an incident happening here. The ones that human rights here are after police torturing their prisoners or killing unarmed 'criminals/addicts' in their homes.

      But a similar incident to that was, a lawyer with companion was being targeted by hitmen. They missed or something and the lawyer rammed them down with the car and shot one of them dead. The hitman had a police ID. Now, the police are suing the lawyer for using an illegal gun.

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      She only knew when he confessed. She didn't apologized though felt quite embarrassed since Shou had told her about it before. Shou is irritated that Shizuka beat him to a public confession. It wasn't discussed further since they are already in a basketball tournament.

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      I see. Unfortunately, he comes out somewhat annoying to me. ^^;

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      Very strange and kind of scary since the cause is unknown. Hm...have you at least a check-up with a private doctor like what is his/her opinion on it? Or, it is already advised that therapy will do if surgery is not an option/cannot be done yet.

      Surgery is usually a drastic approach especially since it involves nerves, etc.

      Yup.

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    7. Yep, more like something not even the person knows about, but it's there and something happens to pull it out and make it known. I like this non too in your face approach.
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      Yea, but those who do that kinda thing couldn't care less, tbh. I myself would often catch me doing scales and positioning my fingers the right way and such when was/am learning cello.

      And for someone who were singing the Frozen song in broad day light in the middle of streets doing all the Elsa dancing moves, while my friend laughed his *ss off, that sh*t is nothing, lol.
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      That always happens here, ALWAYS. But I stand behind that quote, an idiotic phrase coming from the brightest mind will still continue to be idiotic.
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      Wow, that's quite messed too, but I don't think is that bad when compared to what happens here daily, I mean, what I just said to you really happens all the time. Couple days ago a 17er was caught after shooting a 10y in the head - and this 17er had an extensive, and I mean so extense that it took almost a minute to read all his crime records, and yet, there he was, free - and possibly will be free again if he doesn't turn 18 in prison, and even if he does, as he's saying it was an accident - and the grand midia is putting the blame on the gun instead the one who shot it - he might get free either way.
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      Yea, that's another thing that irritates me in every series that happens, they don't talk the issue over and just go along as if nothing ever happens and don't address it anymore. It was obvious a big event, so much that it took almost an entire secondary character arc of building the courage to say, lots of page in the chapter for.... nothing, really? To let everything be the same, then what was the point?
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      Yea, I can see that. In the comments section people are always complaining about him and, like I said, I can really relate to him, I know why there're those complaints and how he may come out utterly annoying. I mean, if I relate so we with him, I should know, right? lol
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      Yea, what took me by surprise was how suddenly it came and how badly it become in such a short time, though, like I said, it only got worse 'cause some doctors delayed too much the right diagnosis and the right treatment, so it was getting worse and worse 'cause the doctors couldn't care less about the my situation 'till I went to this one that treats me now. Then I got better, but it was too late. It is a private doctor, btw.

      But yea, I went to others private doctors since the one treating me don't perform back/spine surgery, and the price to only book a check up is absurd. The surgery in itself is relatively easy/not so dangerous, but the equipments to do it are pricey, and I mean, REALLY, pricey. Also, I pay a health care - it takes out of my salary either I want it or not - for what?

      Though, like I always to me and in my prayers, it's in God's hands, there're no better place to be, so I'll take it w/e happens while doing w/e I can.

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    8. Sigh...spam folder again.

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      I see.

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      Hehe, true. Haha...but was it good? Was it some kind of street performance?

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      Hehe. And there will be people who'll believe that it is gospel truth.

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      That's messed up. So, he'll keep on 'being free' until he becomes an adult. With that kind of 'popularity', what kind of future does he have? Hired by gangsters?

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      True. Still, there are some improvements in their relationship. I guess that part will be worked out in the college arc. It might also be a plot thing wherein things aren't that resolved so that there is still material to use for the story.

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      Lol. Is that so. I haven't read the comments. True. Thinking about it, I have that kind of experience with some characters.

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      Oh. Wrong diagnosis. I see.

      For nothing since they claim that you're totally fine. It reminds me of government agencies or some companies here. They always want to get money from you. But if you overpaid or they'll pay you, they give you a hard time. Sometimes, it isn't worth the hassle.

      That's true. Well, take care and have a nice less painful weekend ^^

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    9. Yea, really a mistery, uh?
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      Nah, we were going to work and I was just singing out loud my frustrations, besides, that song had to do with what I was going to teach - freedom, verbs, individualism etc - so, let's say I was just practicing, lol.
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      Yea, such is the world.

      And obviously, when he's out again he's going to do what he's being his entire life, commit more crimes, hopefully less terrible like this one, but what can we expect? Like I said, this is fruit of this human rights policy that only takes care of the aggressor, never the victims.
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      Yea, if she plans something for the future using that as catalyst, sure, but honestly, I doubt that. It only served to show Sho annoyed 'cause Shizuka confessed 'first', publicly, that is.

      But like I said, it's just small things that we see everywhere that when I see in something I'm really fond of, it pisses the hell of me, lol. Normally I wouldn't give a damn.
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      I only saw some comments in the english section, but it's like I said, I really do relate with the char - though some circumstances are different - he really hits right at home, so yea. It's a matter of taste, either, if it's not your cup, no need to force yourself, right?
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      That, I think that what made all worse was the time it took to diagnosis. If it was earlier, we could've treated in some other way that wouldn't make it worse or something. By the time we knew what it was, it was so bad that only surgery had some chance of placating a little the pain and make it so the nerves aren't so pressured.

      And wow, that's some scheme you got over there, uh? But the part of not worthing the hassle I understand much too well, since I could go to a lawyer and have it through a trial and process the whole thing, but by the time it'd took only to get the judge to read my appeal I'd have died of old age...
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      Thanks Kat, you too, not so much a less painful, but a peaceful weekend. I do have a party to go, but unfortunately I think I'll have to pass, not feeling like I'd do well in the crowd.

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    10. Ya.

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      Lol. Okay.

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      But most people are fed up with that kind of policy, right? Won't there be a candidate who'll 'say' all the things the people want to hear and actually win?

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      Well, there is. Shou wanted to do it too and he did it at an interview for a magazine.

      I got ya.

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      Yup.

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      Indeed. In cases like that time is of the essence.

      Haha...that long? Here, at least, hopefully, old age if you didn't get sick or anything. But then, you'll be a lot poorer as you pay the lawyer, appeals if you lost, etc. And, what if you lost because of connections and bribe.

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      I see. Hehe, peacful since everyone went to the party?

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    11. They act like they're fed up, but always vote for the same ones. Like, I don't what goes on their minds, but it's strange as hell. They say they can't take it anymore, but vote again for the same person that does the same thing and never change? I mean, we're in this for more than 20y and people still act like that...

      This one candidate that I said it's being targeted by the media with all kinds of lies and fake news seems like the only one that honestly wants to change that, but people call him fascist for saying that a citizen should, at the very least, have the right to defend themselves, then the media says he wants to give weapons to everyone and that'll increase the criminality - like a bandit buys his gun in a legalized store...
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      Yea, I saw that part, but it's really like that. Lately, I just can't get myself into it 'cause I know there's the triangle bs even if it's not as annoying as in others stories.
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      It took long for them to know, so the treatment they were giving me had the opposite effect and made it worse, since there were somethings I shouldn't do, but well, past waters as they say.

      Yea, it's just not worth it, you spend much more money trying to have your rightly right as a citizen and as someone who pays for the health care already, it'd be less costy if one'd go to the private doctor and have a paid surgery - which is expensive as hell, like I said.
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      I ended up going, though I did exactly nothing there besides being sit and drink lemon soda, I still ended up with my body aching all over, especially the back. But it's all good, it had been really long since I had been there and saw them all, so it's all good.

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    12. Okay...

      I see. It does seem like a fear of change. At least vote for the devil they know than vote for a possible devil that they don't know. ^^; Hm...for media to say that, is it possible that the ones in government 'pay' media to attack that candidate?

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      I see.

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      Okay. Not only wrong diagnosis, it was wrong treatment. ^^;

      True.

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      Did nothing...hm...no chit-chat? No eating? So, sit, drink soda and watch others?

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    13. I really don't know, and honestly, sometimes only thinking about that gets me so stressed that the pain gets even worse and I need to chill. I don't think they pay, per see, by the media def has it's perks by doing so. Besides, in open tv and some closed too, there're package deals with a party 'supporting' a channel or programs/people that just so happened to support the party back...
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      Yea, and that cast me height loss and weigh gain, besides all the other problems, lol.
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      My way of having fun in most parties is drinking, eating and chatting with friends. I don't dance nor do I like to stand out or anything. This time, since I'm all kinds of screwed up, I just sit there and drink lemon soda, 'cause my stomach was bad too, so lemon soda is a bit better, and talked to some friends that were also there. Didn't go to where the real party was, people dancing and getting slightly crazy.

      Had very little to eat 'cause the stomach, and I'm already crazier than most, with the meds kicking in, lol.

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    14. Lol. I see.

      Oh...scratch my back and I scratch yours.

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      Ah, too many complications.

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      I see. This is at a house? In the ones I've gone to, it is mostly that whether in a house or restaurant. Drinking, eating and chatting. Dancing and stuff are usually at bars, concerts, etc.

      Bad stomach is due to the strong medicine, I presume. It reminded me when I was drinking the necessary medicine causes a side effect to which I have to drink another medicine to counter it. ^^;

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    15. Yea, something like that. It's really disgusting.
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      Yea, her party was at her house, but it had everything. There are people who rent bars, restaurants and buffets, but it's expensive as hell. Pubs used to be cheaper, but even them are pretty costy nowadays.
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      I think so, and sometimes you're just out of yourself and even the smell of some foods makes you want to puke and makes you even worse. I only went 'cause it'd been a really long time, and by their reactions, I guess they were pretty happy with me being there.

      Yes, now I'm not really needing it, but there were some meds that I has to take to counter the side effects of others and in that joke I was taking almost 10 meds, most of them to counter side effects of others. No way to live, thank god I'm feeling better now, even my doctor says that he's relieved that at the very least it didn't got worse, meaning, it didn't affect other parts of my spine and some other things I'm feeling can be treated without surgery. Only those that I said earlier need urgent intervention, but since I'm just a number for the gov, it's been almost 3y that I'm awaiting in line. If I were some rich guy or famous, would've have done a long time ago, for sure.
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    16. Rent? Ah, is it preferred to have the place for the group only? Or, there are too many people so better to go to someone's house or rent a whole place. The downside of doing it at someone's house is, who'll clean up afterwards?

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      That's good, your presence is enough for them to be happy ^^ Hehe, from what I heard, that is how it feels to be pregnant =p

      That's good. The situation is maintained and didn't get worse. Well, not only that, there is also connections like you know a 'somebody' who can 'pull the strings' to hasten up the process.

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      It's okay. Good that you're feeling better.

      Have you read AoT yet? Most of it is action though I did get a bit confused on who's who. I thought it was a girl who is on that boat. ^^;;

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    17. It's both the cases you referred, and sometimes, just to go to somewhere new with some friends and/or family and celebrate. And yea, it's the house owner that cleans it up, like a rule, if you're willing to host a party, then you're be providing everything unless you tell people to bring stuff like beer, meat and etc, beforehand, way beforehand. But you'll always have to clean up, that's an unspoken rule, lol.
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      Holy God of mercy, I did not know that, lol.

      Yea, like the doctor said, at least it didn't get worse. Downside, the meds are stronger and I'm in lalala's land way too much, soon enough I'll be living there.
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      That's what gets me. First it seems he's in an yolo type of mission, no plan. Then, it seems he had a plan, sort of, and once again it'd seem it was just a suicide mission after all. Now, one more time, it doesn't seem that way, it seems the plan was really in the works for years, but then, why Mikasa is telling Eren to go home like he wen mia and she didn't know anything, instead of rushing him to finish up?

      Tha'ts imo, though. But I liked to see that Eren at least now is capable of analyzing his opponent strength and stamina, and he had to train like hell to be able to pull 3 full transformation and all that hardening, or it's just shonen bs like the first time he transformed and saved Mikasa, lol.

      Aaah, I knew it was Armin 'cause he was the only one missing and the ones in 'seemingly advantage' were the islanders, otherwise, I might have though, wth is a girl doing there all alone in that god forsaken boat at the middle of the night? lol.

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    18. Haha, I see. So, the friend will cook or just order take out food? Take out food is easier to clean up ^^

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      Haha. I know since my sis was like that when she was pregnant.

      And, no chance lessening the meds later on?

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      Confusing, indeed. Lol, I actually forgot about that Mikasa thing. ^^;;

      True. It's good that he has 'grown' though we didn't exactly saw the 'process'.

      Lol. That was what I'm thought.

      Have a nice weekend ^^

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    19. Most of the times they cook since it's way cheaper, but sometimes yeah, they order.
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      I see.

      I lessened by myself, tbh. Stopped taking the ones that I haven't seen the slightly effect the should do, stopped taking others that I only noticed side effects and didn't get me anywhere good. So now I'm taking less, but the docs still prescribe others that I won't buy 'cause I'm already taking some with relatively same effects.
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      That's what it gets me sometimes, but I learned to let it go, lol. I like to see the process of someone getting smarter/stronger, and not time skip he grew up.
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    20. I see. What type of food, usually? Pasta? Fried foods? Here, we usually order and eat at home if it is a 'reunion' type.

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      Haha, I see. Self-medicating. But those are mostly pain killers, right?

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      No problem ^^

      From what someone who saw the next chapter, it seems so - won't stand ground. I cannot say yet since I haven't seen it. The latest one I read is the third guy seems to be going for a kiss. But then, he is...seems to be still in love with an ex = the one who got away. He is a bit of a teaser too so I'm guessing that there is no real kiss.

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