December 5, 2017

Kono Oto Tomare [Chapter 63 - Senpai]

Chika looks surprised at Atsumu who told him that he doesn’t want to be taught by him. Atsumu covers his mouth in surprise for how could he blurt that out...


Chika stands up and says, he’ll go and find someone else to replace him. “It’s okay as long as it isn’t me, right. I’ll call someone else. Wait here.” Atsumu tries to say, ah...hm... But Chika had already gone out of the room.
Chika looks glum but he ends up scratching his head. He starts to walk towards the club room. Inside, aghast Atsumu thinks that he had offended Chika. “What to do, what to do. *trembling* It’s possible that later on, I’ll be ruthlessly beaten up and possibly forced to quit the club.

–but, *recalls Oka telling him that Chika got a group of people to attack the grandfather who took care of him, and Chika admitting that it is his fault* From the bottom of my heart, I hate that kind of person.”
Flashback: There are some kids laughing. Young Atsumu is running as fast as he can. He is surprised to see another boy barring his way. The boy said that it is regretful but this road is blocked.

A couple of boys behind Atsumu laughed and told the other boy that Atsumu went to his side. After looking around, Atsumu ran away but ends up tripping and falling flat on the ground. The boys laugh at him for being an idiot, a stupid pig. Crying Atsumu picked himself up.
While holding his nose, crying Atsumu walks away. The boys called out that he stood up, gambatte~~ “Hey, Atsumu, let’s also play happily tomorrow-- USING YOU TO PLAY!! Okay, okay, can’t wait-- *between themselves* How are we going to play tomorrow--”

Narration: “Ever since before, I’m quite short and I look like a girl. My nature is also very weak so I’m always bullied by the others. In school, I’m always being laughed at. *scene of Atsumu wanting to play ball, others would ask if they have more girls and Atsumu should play by himself*...

...Every day, after school, I’ll be chased after for fun. *the boys ran after crying Atsumu as they shout that they’ll pull down his pants to see if he is really a boy* For the me at that time— grandpa, who is living next door, is my heart’s harbor [/haven].”
Atsumu watched the grandpa playing koto. The grandpa saw him and said that he came again--... He quickly grabbed Atsumu’s shoulder and shouted what happened that he is wounded all over and he’s even bleeding!!

“Did those bad kids beat you up again!? *fuming as he pulled up his sleeve* Leave it to grandpa. Watch how grandpa will teach them a lesson. Unexpectedly daring to touch my cute grandson!!”

Atsumu nervously shouted for him not to and he merely had a fall. “I’m alright!!” Grandpa asked if that is true. Atsumu shouted that it is true and look, it doesn’t hurt a bit. Grandpa said is that so.
Holding Atsumu’s arms, grandpa told him that if he is unhappy, by all means, do not repress it. “Whether it is repressing or forcing yourself, it isn’t worthy to be praised just to appear strong. If there is something up, you must immediately say it out! Grandpa will give it his all to help you out!!”

Atsumu smiled and said, yes! “Ah, grandpa! Can you play the koto again today for me!” Grandpa said, okay. He exclaimed that Atsumu really likes to listen to him play the koto! Atsumu exclaimed that he really likes it! Grandpa laughed and said that he is really lovable. Atsumu went in the room as grandpa got ready to play.

Narration: “Grandpa happily said that and he’ll start to play the koto for me. The koto sound that grandpa played is always very powerful. Dignified and solemn yet at the same time, it is very warm. It is like it is telling me, ‘don’t be scared!’. Each time, I obtained courage from it.”
Later on, while sitting by the porch, Atsumu asked grandpa when he started playing the koto. Grandpa said that it is when he was around 18 years old. Atsumu asked why he started playing. Blushing a bit, grandpa said during that time his grandma was playing.

“Before you were born, she had already passed away so you don’t quite know her but your grandma is the most beautiful in this town! Ah ha ha, it was love in first sight with your grandma when she was playing the koto so I also started playing!

...When she was playing koto, her posture is majestic and the melody is totally graceful. So, at that time, I thought this person’s heart is definitely also very beautiful, right.” Atsumu asked, heart...
Grandpa told him that the koto sound can mirror a person’s heart. “I wonder what Atsumu’s koto sound would be like?” Atsumu said that it is definitely a weak and shameful sound.

Grinning grandpa said, really but he thinks that it is a powerful and dazzling sound that will attract people. “I really hope that one day I can listen to your koto sound.” Atsumu blushed over this. End flashback.

At the clubroom, Takezou exclaims in disbelief that Chika won’t teach anymore. Chika tells him that’s right, so someone among them should go and replace him. Hiro exclaimed that he taught for just around half an hour!? Takezou asks what had happened!?
Chika says that it is nothing and he simply feels that he isn’t suitable in teaching others. This made the others look surprised. Chika says, glasses, basically, it was agreed that you’ll teach so you go. 

Takezou is surprised then he wonders what to do. “Should I ask in detail as to what was the situation... or, it is better not to ask and just replace him first. I’ll wait when the two of us are alone--”

Satowa walks in front and says that didn’t Chika say before that teaching is a piece of cake. Surprised Takezou tries to call out Satowa, Chika tells her that if she wants to say that she thinks that he can but in fact, after actually doing it, he found out that he couldn’t do it!
Satowa asks him what he did during that half an hour. Chika exclaims that he did a lot! Satowa tells him to let her say this first. “If you’re not going to teach him, then no one else will go and teach him. Even if I’m sorry for Yoshinaga-san but we can only make him give up on participating the Nationals.”

Surprised Chika exclaims, ha? “What do you mean by that! How come it became like that!” Hiro tells Satowa that’s right, and even if she were to say that, but there’s no need... Sane says that it isn’t strange that they are incompatible.

Unfazed Satowa says, “I think that it is impossible for that kind of person, whom you gave up on after teaching for half an hour, to participate with us in the Nationals.” Everyone looks surprised. Chika becomes flustered and he quickly goes out the room.
Suzuka starts laughing out loud. Embarrassed Satowa shouts what he is laughing about!! Covering his mouth, Suzuka says no, it’s nothing. He thinks, “It is impossible for someone who doesn’t trust Kudou 100% to say out that kind of words.”

Holding the notebook while running back, Chika is irked with himself for being useless and what’s up with him that he’ll give up so fast. “Speaking of that, when Houdzuki taught me the Rokudan, it seems that she said, ‘Basically, the school is different. Classical pieces’ tradition and teaching method can also be totally different’.

--...afterwards, ah--what else...I cannot remember clearly the details. In short, ‘just like a person, if one wants to understand apart from ‘single-hearted devotion’, there’s no other way but directly face the difficulty [/challenge].”
He slams the door open which startles Atsumu. Sitting again, Chika apologizes and says that it looks like he would be the one teaching so just bear with it. Wondering why it is like this, nervous Atsumu says that he wants to research while practicing by himself.

Chika agrees with it. “But, no matter what, if there is something that you don’t understand, then just ask. I’ll always be waiting over here.” After looking surprised, Atsumu wonders why, and he really couldn’t understand what Chika is thinking.

Later on, Takezou and others look tense as they ask how come it seems that they’ve become thin. They <- Chika, Atsumu and Kouta. Scowling Chika mentally curses since Atsumu didn’t ask him anything even once when he obviously totally couldn’t play the piece.
Atsumu thinks that Chika is always waiting over there, he is always being stared at that he couldn’t easily breath because of it... “Ah, could it be that is how he [Chika] is looking for trouble...”

Takezou tells them that they’ll be going to a different place to practice so what do they think about it. Excited Atsumu says that he’ll also... He looks at Chika who is looking at him. Then, he timidly says that he won’t go...today...

Takezou thinks that just now, Atsumu obviously looked at Chika so he said that... Satowa had also noticed it. Kouta asks Natsu. Natsu apologizes for he cannot go home very late. Kouta says is that so, then see you tomorrow. Natsu apologizes for he has a job interview tomorrow.
Kouta apologizes since Natsu’s time is so precious but he wasn’t able to properly help him. Smiling Natsu says that it is alright, and it would be better to say that Kouta’s practice time is so precious yet he used it to teach him.

“Thank you very much. You already taught me. I’ll go practice by myself at home.” Kouta looks flustered. Natsu says then, he’ll be going ahead so goodbye, everyone. They tell him ‘good work’ and ‘take care on his way’. Natsu waves back then turns to leave.

He thinks that it is really amazing, this koto club with that kind of person who has an awful sense of rhythm can unexpectedly still enter the Nationals. He puts on his earphones and start playing Moby Dick by Led Zeppelin. He thinks, “Compare to my imagination, this club is quite boring.”
Atsumu says that he’s also leaving. He is startled when Chika says, see you tomorrow. Atsumu just nods and leaves. While Chika is in deep thought, Kouta calls out to everyone that actually, he wants to leave now so is that okay. Sane says that it is okay but what’s up.

Hiro asks what happened between him and Natsu. Kouta says no, it isn’t like that. It just that he feels that there is so many things that he can only feel and understand as a whole so he wants to do something to understand some things better.

“...after all, even if it is me, right now, I’m already a senpai.” This surprises Chika. Hiro is moved to tears that Kouta has grown up. Kouta says that is how it is, sorry, and he’ll see them tomorrow.
After he left, Chika also apologizes to everyone and says that he’ll also be going ahead. This made everyone smile including Suzuka. At his house, Chika put some koto books on the table. Isaki comments that is rare so is he studying.

Chika says that she can consider that. Isaki tells him to tidy things up after he finishes. Chika comments that she even has to say that. He starts flipping through the books regarding Yamata school.

At Akira’s place, after playing ‘I’, she thinks that it is really very hard to play but then, it also feels that the more one plays this piece, the more--... Ding dong. She answers the door and is surprised to see Kouta. Kouta apologizes for suddenly coming over but there is something he wants to ask of her.
The next day, Natsu is riding the train while listening to music. He was interrupted by a message from Kouta. At first, Natsu wonders who Kouta is but when Kouta mentioned about the club yesterday, Natsu remembered him. Kouta apologizes for not being able to properly demonstrate it yesterday.

After that time, he asked the teacher to let him watch her play Rokudan once. “I made a video. I’m sending it to you now!” Kouta sends the video of him playing the koto. He writes that the tempo should be right now so if Natsu doesn’t mind, check it out! “And then…” Natsu thinks no way, it isn’t over yet.

Kouta sends more messages about the question he wasn’t able to answer yesterday about the , pulling the string, beat and etc. Since his phone keeps on beeping, Natsu thinks that it’s so noisy. “If this is Oka, I’ll immediately block him.”
Kouta writes that if there is any other things that he doesn’t understand, do not hesitate to ask. “Don’t be shy! I’ll go research it!” Natsu thinks that he would even go and research, it’s so annoying to death. He puts his phone in his pocket. After a while, he takes it out again and plays Kouta’s video.

In 1-C, Atsumu is reaching on his smartphone regarding the music sheet of Rokudan. Everyone is startled when Chika enters the room. Atsumu wonders why he is here.

Holding a notebook, Chika goes towards him. Oka and others look tense. Chika tells Atsumu that it turns out that Yamata school and Ikuda school’s music sheets aren’t the same.
Chika informs him that he is in his own ‘school’ [own way of learning] so he doesn’t quite understand because he always thought that the music sheets for the same musical instrument is the same.

“No wonder you weren’t able to understand the music sheet yesterday. I didn’t notice it since I saw that you were able to play Sakura without any problems.”

Atsumu admits that he played Sakura before. Chika says is that so and speaking of that, it seems that he didn’t look at the music sheet before. Atsumu says but, compared to that, he...no...it’s nothing.
Chika says that it is alright, just say it again if he wants to. Giving him the notebook, Chika says that he asked the boss lady of a musical instrument store whether or not there is a Yamata music sheet. “She told me to go and get it somewhere else so you take a look at this first.”

After Atsumu takes the notebook, Chika turns to leave and say, bye. Surprised Atsumu flips open the notebook. Chika wrote about the basic differences between the two school’s way of numbering. Yamata uses old traditional kanji for 1-3 whereas Ikuda uses the modern kanji. From 4 and above, it is the same.

He explained the pull the string with a drawing of a hand with three fingers held up. is four counts rest which is like period ‘Hey. That’s right. You.’. Whereas which is like an eyeball is pressing the note longer like ‘Hey- That’s right- You- that kind of feeling when it is played. 
He also wrote what press [‘’] means in playing and how to do it using his own words. “I also don’t know if it is right so sorry if it is wrong.” Oka goes to Atsumu and asks if he is alright.

“Isn’t it too soon that you are already being targeted by Kudou-senpai!? What did he give you...is that an incantation spell!? So, I told you before, do not go near--” 

Atsumu flips the notebook and looks at the whole music sheet explained in detail. He recalls his grandpa saying, “Koto sound...can mirror a person’s heart.” 
Narration: “I have heard Kudou-senpai’s koto sound so many times. The National preliminaries. At the shopping center. Nonstop, incessantly listen to it nonstop. Everyday. Everyday. Everyday, I obviously feel that gentle sound of his.”

He recalls the bullying kids, a scene of what seems to be a quarrel with his grandpa, and his crying younger self apologizing to his grandpa. Oka is surprised when Atsumu suddenly stands up and heads out the door.

Narration: “I’m still the same as before, I haven’t changed at all. I obviously came to this place in order to change. *holds notebook tightly* In order to change myself.”
Comment: It does seem that Chika isn’t inclined to clarify misunderstandings about him and just let the other person think what they want to think about him. He also didn’t bother explaining to the others the real reason why he wants to be replaced at Atsumu’s teacher. I guess that can be viewed positively as ‘not blaming others’ for whatever happened.

Apparently, Atsumu let his fears and trauma take over him regarding the rumors about Chika. Though, I cannot blame him since those kids are really mean and he doesn’t have a single friend among them. His comfort is his grandpa and his koto music.

Even with his grandpa’s advice, Atsumu prefers to bear it all by himself. I guess he fears that the bullying would get worse if he tells an adult. I wonder if in the end, grandpa did stepped in which caused Atsumu to get angry at him...and perhaps, move away. Grandpa’s love story/reason for playing is nice though. ^^

Anyway, it’s Satowa’s turn to help Chika to not give up on someone and not to easily give up. ^^ I wonder if that made Suzuka think that Satowa has a thing for Chika...hehe, unless, he already knew =P

It’s really nice how the senpai-s get out of their way to teach the kouhai-s even if they should really be practicing instead. In a way, they will give it their all and it will now be up to the kouhai-s whether or not they can pass the test.

From the last pages, the kouhai-s are reacting to their senpai-s hard work so perhaps, in the next chapter, we’ll get to the ‘test’. Actually, I think those two will be part of the group in performing at the Nationals. Scans by 二次元秘店

Quote of the day:
Running away from your problems is a race you’ll never win. Face them head on, knowing there will be brighter days. ~ Author Unknown

26 comments:

  1. Thank you i have been waiting for this , yeah it seems that chika doesnt care about clarificatiins which honestly makes sense since no one believed him for a long time i'm just glad that the koto club people believe in him regardless of explanation, satawa was really awesome i was expecting some drama but her words really striked where it matters, atsumu seems to be changing so perhaps he will accept chika but natsu remains a problem specially when someone as genius as he is is paired with clumsy kouta i am glad kouta is starting to learn some basics seriusly chika too it was obvious that this was suzuka's intention when he made these two do the teaching and of course grandpa stories are always nice and heartwarming i think it will be nice to see a happier atsumu in the club, thank you

    Emmahoshi

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    1. You're welcome and thanks for waiting, Emmahoshi ^-^

      Ah, true.

      Indeed, I agree ^^

      =)

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  2. Thank you! Your summaries breathe life to the series and I always look forward to reading them.

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    1. You're welcome and thank you for the comment, Anon0o0 ^-^

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  3. I'm thankful this didn't take that long to resolve and look forward to the next chapter and them hoprfully committing to the club so we can move on to the main competition :)

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  4. I really wish to know the true reason Natsu joined the koto club. Seems to me it's the same reason Atsumu did. Because of Chika. While Atsumu's reason is based on admiration and probably sees his grandpa in him. Natsu is a mystery and hopefully not as nefarious as I've imagined.

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    1. I don't think it is nefarious or anything of that sort, Lidy. Somehow, I see him as a lonely guy who wants to find something interesting to do. I assumed that he is curious about this club that Chika joined, and he had heard Chika play. So, what's in this club? Something like that.

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  5. Thank you very much, Kat! Loved the chapter, as usual. Really like how Kouta has grown, to search for a answer that he himself doesn't know only 'cause a kouhai/student asked and he couldn't answer. His determination might change his kouhai heart, just like Chika's already changed the one his teaching. Speacially knowing how 'stupid' he is, going that far to help a stranger that clearly despises him and said it out loud to him. That right there touch me really hard, hit right at home, I tell you.

    And being a professor myself, or former since I'm on sick leave for almost three year now, and have been teaching for more than 10y, I can tell for total sure that it's really hard for most teachers admit they don't know something and will try to solve the question and find an answer soon. I did 'cause I don't like not knowing myself, but you'd be surprise on how many doesn't even care and just upright lie about it, making something up at the moment and be done with it.

    These things done by Kouta and Chika reminded me about what is to actually be a professor and what teaching is about.

    Also, can't not say how much I relate to Chika in the matter that I won't defend myself 'cause I think I'm guilty or at the very least, partly responsible so, think what you will, but don't bring my issue onto my friends. Damn, I really thought there were some invisible fast ninjas cutting onions in my office here, I think I still haven't really gotten better as I thought, but reading this types of stories always soothes you. So, thank you again, Kat.
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    Really? I mean, that stuff is used on surgeries here, ofc, you can find in other ways, but it's extremely expensive and not very easy to find, if you already don't know who to go for. It's stronger than morph, like I said.
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    Yea, do you believe the country's mail system wanted to charged me twich for an order I made, and without any clarification on it? Then, they also changed the way it's handled, without any warning, then just up and returned my order, also without any order. And I can't even make a complaint, since their site doesn't allow it, saying there's have been an error, try other time.

    Exploration and robbery in pure daylight made by the gov without even trying to hide it anymore.
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    Unfortunately, exactly like here. I've been almost six months without payment, all 'cause someone in the secretary made a mistake and obviously wouldn't admit it. I could sue them, but a free lawyers'd take forever - it's been almost 20y and my mother still haven't been paid her full retirement pay. Now that she paid a lawyer, it's slowly progressing, it's been only 5y. So since my professor salary is ridiculous and I wouldn't even be able to pay a lawyer, I let it go. Thank god I'm not really needing and can count on family and friends, otherwise, I don't wanna even try to think.
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    Yea, I'm a bully, but only with people that I love and also bully me, lol.
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    Wow! Really? How come? That overcame even my sis crashing into three cars at the same time. Just wow!
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    Did you read Shingeki? Not it's clearer, but it seems like Eren just want to end it all and be done with it, to hell with consequences. Though I liked how he finally matured over the revenge at all costs, and now fights for freedom at all costs - freedom on both sides, mind you.

    Though, why they're still leaving other titans alive I can't grasp it. Maybe they hope to change their minds into fighting the Marley Corruption together and then, dispersing?

    Wanna see Mikasa, Levi and Annie now, more than ever, lol.

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    1. Not really related to anything, but would you mind if I "advertise" your blog on some of my under constructions medias? I'm lauching a patreon where I offer games, manga and anime analysis in depth, so sometimes I think it'd be nice to promote your blog too, since it helps people who love what we also love. I'd put your link in my twitch page redirecting here. I haven't really started anything yet, but was taking things into consideration.

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    2. Thanks for reading, Fê ^-^ Yup ^^

      Hehe, is that so? I don't recall that during my studying years since it is rare for us to question. Or, perhaps, the teachers just discuss, we memorize then exam. They call it spoonfeeding-type of teaching. It seems that these days, teachers encourage students to be more inquisitive and vocal.

      Yup, and it's their 'first time' to teach. Can you say that it is so since they aren't exactly 'arrogant'-types?

      Ah, you've been through that ^^ Indeed, it makes one feel that everything is alright in the world. You're welcome ^^

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      Well, it's expensive so those who have the money would mostly use that resource to find where it can be bought. As I mentioned, connections is very important in our country especially with the rich and politicians. So, those who want to become instant rich just have to know who's who = who has the money and one has to be good in 'socializing'. You know, giving praises, advice, help you with the minor things etc.

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      Wow, changing rules midway. Are many people affected by it? Or, as what our government would say, it's an 'isolated case'. They're cunning to make the complaint site to not work properly. Here, mail takes a long time. An ordinary mail within the city will take a week. So, obviously, text/email is better. Also, the post office is notorious for stealing things/money inside mail and packages.

      Haha, yup, it happens here to. Not only that, they are no longer hiding their greed. Like these congressmen, they want a bill wherein they won't be stopped for traffic violation because they will be late for the congress session. The new one is they want 50% discount from political ads which are usually used for elections. And yet, they want to increase our taxes which will affect almost everything.

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      Oh, it's like that, too. There are exemptions though like if this client is suing for a huge amount of money, a lawyer might take it for minimum charge/free but the deal is, the lawyer will get a huge percent if s/he wins the case.

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      Haha...is that good? =P

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      I don't know. Maybe drivers these days are really bad since they are bumping into parked cars. The first one is in a parking lot. The second one is parked by the street. The third one is at a parking space by the street.

      Oh, have I told you that driving here is mostly self-taught? So, it is quite chaotic and again, traffic rules are okay as long as you don't get caught. The government is trying a carpool lane lately. It was flop due to the ingenuity of some to escape the rule by putting mannequins/dummies in the car, have dark tinted cars or both =P

      Oh, is your sister okay? What happened? If that happens here, the drivers would usually say that they lost their brakes/control of the vehicle. Unfortunately, most of the time when it is on tv, people died due to the accident.

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      Hehe, that seems to be the impression since I'm slightly confused at first as if Eren is contracting himself but then, ya, he did turn into a titan. Instead of rampaging, his target is quite precise. Though, I'm not sure if Reiner and that kid managed to get away...most likely, they did.

      I think so. Perhaps, it is more like how they are all pawns like Reiner was, this time just convince them that they're on the wrong side. Eldians will be free. Something like that.

      Hehe ^^ On how they've look and changed? Question, aside from that guy, who else are the enemy? Just those group of people/Marley leaders? Or, it is abstract like re-educated people from all that 'brainwashing'?

      Sure, no problem ^^ Good luck on your project ^^

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    3. I always tried making the students think for themselves, but tbh, that's almost an ungrateful task. It seems no one wants it, it's better to spoungefeed so 'we get better results'. They're not arrogant - they think of me as an arrogant prick that fortunately is bedridden, not jokin'. They simply don't care, in someway, I can relate since most of the students don't care either and only ask really stupid question that have nothing to do with anythin', but even when it's a serious question, those so called teachers just act the same way 'cause they don't know themselves and think if they don't know something, it'd hurt their image as a teacher. Guess what's hurtin' more...
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      Yea, I relate a lot to Chika and how he's beeing portrayed. It really hits home for this oldman, lol.
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      These countries we live in, as I said before, looks like long lost brothers. They're so alike we'd have no idea if not by exchangin' our exp.
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      Yea, they do that, yea, I'm a isolated case and guess what? They only did - started doin' by orders that comes from US - which is almost all - so they can claim their part easily.

      Don't they have like, security plans/measures in case of stolen goods? Here, at least they reembolse if what you ordered didn't arrive.
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      Would you look at that? Just like here. They created a fund - with public money, ofc - to sponsor political ads and elections campaigns, in order to avoid corruption, they said. But donations are still fine, and you don't even have to declare openly. Sound like what?
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      Yea, but only if the chances of winning is high, if it isn't, you're on your own, again.
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      Well, they do bully me first, so I don't know, lol.
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      My sister was okay, it's been sometime already. Here drivers aren't self taught, but can buy the license and do all this crazy stuff like you mentioned, or do what my sister did and mistake the brakes from the accel and boom, baptized with a crash, hitting three at once, lol.
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      I think they're good, I mean, doubt it Reiner wouldn't protect the boy, and being able to heal himself hella fast, he might as well go against Eren again, if he still dumb blind.

      Yea, I think the moral of the story is recounting history as you see fit to 'brainwash' the new generation and keep the system alive. Imo, it's a good moral, but it needs more work for us to trully feel the weight of it, 'till now, we've seen the bad and 'badder', but we didn't see the reactions of the people being confronted and conflicted by the fact that all they know have been lies from all sides, we gotta see how the common folk'll deal with it to have a grasp on the feels, if you know what I mean.
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      Aah, nice. I'm terrible with html and embueing links, so I'll ask my friend to do something nice like she did of the others. In any case, I just start out so it'll take some long time to see any results if at all, lol.

      Here's the page: https://www.twitch.tv/fvckbringer

      I'd stream today, but I'm much too tired and kinda pissed, so I'll skip it now, lol.

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    4. I see. If it is like that it can be quite discouraging then. Ah, the serious question is related to the subject? I recall my biology teacher before. We didn't learn much biology from her since most of the time, she is talking about her life. ^^; Lol, perhaps that was kind of effective since I can still remember some of the stuff she said.

      Like, her husband is quite stingy. He believes that he isn't going to spend money on a girlfriend since it would be a waste of time if he didn't marry the girl. So, he gives cheap gifts. But, after they got married, he splurges on her by giving expensive gifts. ^^

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      Haha, is that so. Haha...'oldman' as in feeling like an 'oldman'? ^^

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      Indeed. Speaking of similarity, remember the dengue vaccine I told you about. It turns out that it is the same one used in your country. They say, hey, it is safe since Mexico and Brazil use it.

      Those who have an ax to grind against the past admin are already saying that they caused genocide for giving that vaccine to people. Some are blaming some deaths to it though it isn't conclusive that the vaccine caused the death. Out of curiosity, is there such a huge outcry there?

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      So, it is kind of 'legal' since it is 'charge'. That's one way how it is also done here.

      Usually, it is more expensive to have insurance. People tend to undervalue the shipment. Well, if it is a private company, then, there might be a security plan/measure but a post office = government. If it's gone, it's gone. Again, suing etc cost a lot of money that it might be even more than the item lost.

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      Wow, public money. It is tempting to steal from it. But, how do they divide it? Per party? Was the purpose to level the playing field for candidates? Here, you usually have to have donors, etc. Then, if you win, they help you back by giving you business, positions, etc. Of course, give trouble to those who didn't help them.

      It's quite obvious with the current president that he would even declare that he put this and that stupid people in position = we pay for their salary because he owes them. They helped him win the presidency or have been praising/supporting him in EVERYTHING, good or bad, that he does.

      Stupid is not only with their lack of logic but totally have bad grammar and wrong spellings in their propaganda/props. To really rub it in, these people are very vicious and arrogant as if they are some gift to the people. As a famous saying here, 'What are we in power for?'

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      True.

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      Haha

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      That's good, she's okay. Oh...ah, is there the same sexist thing there about female drivers? Like, they're slow and not good in driving? Here, if a car is causing a bit of trouble, they'll look at the driver. If it is female, they'll say, ah, no wonder...

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      True.

      Hm...so how does one make it known? Usually, it has to be quite convincing. Rather, one has to be oozing with charisma, etc and people will just easily believe. Haha. Okay, it works most of the time in our country. I'm not sure Eren fits it since he just toss off their cheerleader. Perhaps, it would be better to appeal on how they were treated? And, they want it to 'change'. <- slogan of the current admin.

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      Oh, so twitch requires knowledge of html and stuff? In this blog, it is like a word processor so much easier.

      Nice site ^^ Something to do to minimize thinking/feeling the pain ^^

      Hope you'll feel better again soon ^^

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    5. It is, and I honestly think most of them are there just to earn theirs, not to teach or anything that the profession'd require. Like, tell me, what does talkin' about her husband taught you in biology, besides some men bein' logical with their money? lol.
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      Yea, I feel and look like one, besides still be a fit/bulky ogre, we too do grow old, haha.
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      An outcry, no, but there were lots of people talkin' about the 'dagenrs' of the vaccine. I myself took mine when I went to Amazon, nothing happened, all the while the nurse who shot me as talkin' of how her friend died because of it and stuff like that.
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      No, I mean, here there're insurances like, you get refunds if the order didn't reach you, regardless of the reason. Unless you bought from second/third hand...
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      They're not even hidin' anymore. It infuriates me to no end, so I try not to think about it, though I always think, otherwise, I'd be helpin' this corrupt system propagate itself, and I don't wanna do that.

      Your president, it's at very least a honest thief, if one can say that.
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      Yea, woman behind the wheel, constant ill - loosely translating a saying we have here.
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      I think, for all the story has given us, it didn't provided a common sense or any unified feeling towards anything. It's always dual, enemy or friend. Now, we see there were no enemies from the beginnin', only misled people by power and status. A now what? Eren, and presumably his friends have figured this out and, we didn't see how they manage to cope with it. Now, we propably won't be seein' either, unless the author decides leave the more urgent ploy and focus on this side of the coin I'm talkin' about. Which is highly unlikely.
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      Requires some knowlodge, nothing fancy or hard, it's just me that can't do anything nice with html, lol.

      Yea, I'm doin' patreon things too, and also advertising on twitter. But if you take a look, it's still all under construction or in testin' phase. Youtube channel either. I'll try to make anime/manga and games content, analysis and reviews and maybe rave about the gov and the educational system, or some other rant, lol.

      the plans are set, the doings are not, hahaha. If you check my patreon, you'll see an analysis I did of Clare, from Claymore, when she got absorbed by that lump of flesh, Pri, Rafa and Lufaela. Quite the long reading, I warn you, lol.

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    6. And thanks, I do feel a bit better. Slowly, but surely. Can even walk like a cripple now, before, I had to crawl. So we're gettin' there. Thanks Kat.

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    7. I see. But, the pay isn't high, right? Here, most won't go to teaching since it pays low and one is usually overworked. I'm talking about public school teachers. Last I heard, they have three shifts/batches of students per day to teach. There is also election duty which most would want to avoid since the government doesn't pay on time.

      Lol, but she is always connecting it to whatever biology subject she started to teach. It always ends up about her life. Lol

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      Ah yes. Signs of growing old is showing on me, too. Sometimes, I'm scared of getting old because of the 'bad stuff' but I would think, ah, the alternative would be 'die young'. Not that good either. Lol

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      Okay, that's not encouraging. I mean, the nurse is talking about that, and s/he's injecting you with it. ^^;

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      Ah, maybe there is such but I'm talking about things sent to you by relatives/friends so it isn't exactly an 'order'. Before, the customs wanted people to list down the contents. They may mean well but their reputation is like one of the most corrupt agencies in government. So, people are thinking, they wanted it listed so that they'll know what to steal. ^^;;

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      True.

      Lol, that's what his fans say. At least, he's honest. He also admitted to stealing when he was a mayor. Or, even he killed people like throw them off helicopters. Stabbed someone to death when he was 16. People are saying wow, cool and macho like those action stars in movies. Of course, there are also things he would blatantly lie about but those are ignored by his fans.

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      I see. It's the same there.

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      I see. And, any flashbacks about it seems unlikely either.

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      Haha, I see.

      Ya. Well, good luck and have fun ^^

      Ah, it is indeed a long and detailed analysis. I'm not that into Claymore so my understanding of her character is quite shallow as I don't quite recall much of the earlier stuff. ^^;

      That's great. Ah...crawling due to pain? Or, bedridden for so long that you cannot walk properly afterwards. <- personal experience.

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    8. Actually, it's not that it isn't high, it's that not worth all the functions a true teacher/professor must perform, so it'd seem low salary for how much work we have. But it's overworked - look at my situation, I was teaching at three periods, in two schools, from 7am to almost midnight, five times a week - that disregarding the class prep, the tests reviews, the reviews itself, the subjects for the next class - which was more than 20 and so on.

      Here we can deny election duty, but most won't 'cause they can get two days off after/next year. I always decline pretty emphatically> No. Way. In. All. Hell. After hearing those kind words, they usually don't bother me for the next two/three years.

      Well, if you learned something, that's okay, I guess, lol.
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      You know, I was always the kind of 'thinker' that'd rather go with a 'bam', live 10y in full speed than living 100y slowly walkin'. But that's just me, I guess. Never once I met someone like that, and when my cousin said the same, he was too deep in drugs that we had to force him into rehab, literally. Which is not a good comparison, lol.
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      Really? Now you got me thinking, I don't know if I send things to my friends around Brasil - which I send very often - will be refunded if it gets stolen. But the deliveries companies do have insurances in any case, just honestly don't know if, like, I have to send this japanese book I won in a promo to my friend that actually knows japanese, on the other side of the town. Not far, could drive there if I could barely walk like a normal human being, but, you now. I'm thinkin' now, yea, lol.
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      I still don't understand how people confess their crime, but they still don't get 'caught'? Here, the former president even went on sayin', well, everyone does it, so everyone's guilt? When she was being investigated after the impeachment.
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      We don't actually need fb, we just need one or two chapters focusing on how this new characters'd react in case they got to know the whole truth. Falco was breakin', but he's not even 12 by his looks only, so is hard to fathom anything.
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      I'll need luck, yea, lol. All tests I've been doin' have something go wrong in the middle so I just let it go and w/e - like my nickname suggests, lol.

      Wow, you mean, you actually read all of that?
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      Both, actually, lol. But I'm doing exceptionally better these last few days. The pain has really go down and I can move almost like normal. 'Course, can't run, jump, lift nor even walk more than 3min, but that's a lot better from before where I couldn't even turn my head and the pain'd prevent me.

      But I've been doing most therapeutic exercises pretty intensively. So much that afterwards, I can't lift myself nor stand or move for a few minutes. It feels like all the pain in the word - though I'm pretty sure women'd laugh if they heard me saying that, after giving birth. And have changed my diet too, though I can't still eat like normal.

      It's gettin' better, thank God. And thank you for the cheering!

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    9. Wow, that's a lot of work. 7am to almost midnight. I would have collapse after a few weeks. Lol, at most I need 9 hours of sleep. Huhu, I'm not like other people who can do well with just a few hours. Ah, is that part of the reason of your poor health now?

      Lol. By the way, how often is the elections there? Here it is every three years. Ah, that is for the local posts. For National posts, it is every six years.

      Haha, ya in a way. She made us memorize scientific names of insects/animals...I gave all that lesson back to her = forgot everything. I think we were stuck in that subject for a few months since she kept talking about her life. Then, exams are coming so she starts to rush things. ^^;

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      Lol...not a good comparison. Is your cousin okay now? I'm curious, how long does one have to be in rehab? Is it years or months? Like, for someone who cannot live without drugs.

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      I guess it would depend if it is worth stealing. I don't think they are interested in stealing a book in a foreign language =P

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      That's the same here. No one would say anything because they'll dig up your dirt. It helps if you are currently the president or has a lot of connections. Of course, if you don't have dirt, they'll just create the dirt to tarnish your reputation. I mean, well, a lot of people would easily believe what others say in a very convincing way even if there is zero proof. Or, even nitpick every very small mistake/imagined wrongdoing to make you look bad. So everyone is now 'dirty' ^^;

      Usually, in elections, we go for the 'lesser devil' = everyone is no good. People refrain from voting the unknowns since they might also be 'devils'. They prefer the 'devils they know'. Lol, I tend to vote for the unknowns =P It kind of like 'none of the above' since they never win. Haha

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      That's one thing and I think Falco is also confused because of Reiner's reactions.

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      Tests...blood tests/x-rays?

      Sorry, I confess, I didn't. As I mentioned, I'm not that into it so as I start to read, I couldn't quite grasp it. ^^; Lol, I don't quite recall the scenes you've mentioned.

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      Hm...things seem to be that bad. Nerves are being pinched that you cannot quite move? Well, aside from the pain. Hm..cannot turn head. Is that just for the head and cannot walk or for all parts of the body...like cannot move anything? I mean, during that time, what do you do? Watch tv? You cannot play games, right?

      That's great ^^ Hopefully, it continues to improve so you can do more other things that you want to do ^^

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    10. Yea, obviously, you don't need to work that much, but not working that much you barely get paid above the minimum wage - not kidding since now I can't work my salary is barely the minimum wage, and that's 'cause I have most formations this country "education provides", besides tons of extra formations like in social culture and psychology towards teaching among other lil' things that, I repeat, SHOULD count as bonus wage, but, you know....

      It definitely was, I mean, when it wasn't only from 7am to almost midnight, had to prepare all classes, all materials and subjects for each different course, reviews and the list never ends. So that's why we say teachers/professors aren't well paid. They work too much - the serious ones, I mean. I know some that just tell people to copy or read the book and keep their butts sit, always delay the tests results...

      2y. Theres the federal one, gov, president, senators; and the prefectural ones, mayors etc. They're in power for 4y each, like, 2014 was the president, next president is 2018, but 2016 was the mayor, so 2020...
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      He's fine now, thank God. The minimum time required are 6 months, sometimes one must extend the period 'cause he's still not ready to get out. Sometimes, they can get before 'cause they got better earlier. It's from case to case, we never know. Ah, I've worked at a rehab clinic as volunteer, teaching there so they get stuff to occupy themselves, it was at the time that my cousin started to respect me not only as a family member, but like a good person. Before, most my family'd regard me as prodigy child that got stranded, lol. Things change now, thankfully.
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      Yea, but they never know what it's in there, unless they open and close, that is.
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      Here, most politicians and rich don't go to jail, when they go, they're released in matter of weeks, get all the privileges one can imagine or are 'locked' inside their house, like yea, that's a real prison in luxury mansions and farms.

      At the very least, like I said before, we can opt to not vote in anybody at all. And that's what I've been doing for the past 16y, lol.
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      Yea, Falco also idolized Reiner, so seein' him fear like that must shake the lil' boy.
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      No, no. I was talkin' about the tests I've been doing to streaming, playing and transmitting, recording and such.

      Got another set of blood tests and x-rays coming up, but all for next year.
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      Don't mind it, it's a lot of stuff, and to someone that isn't even remotely invested, it's not worth it the time.
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      It has been like for about 2y now, but got worse recently. Now, I'm doin' all I can to help the muscles, tendons and nerves not to wither and not to get all entangled. All kinds of therapies and exercises. Sometimes I can't walk or move at all, then I wait and do all the stretches and exercises to help loosen up a bit, but it hurts like all damn hell.

      And just as I was kinda glad I was gettin' better, two days in a row that my condition regressed, guess that's life for us, lol.

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    11. And that's not counting the time needed to work on reviews, tests, exams, prepare new classes to each group and so on and on. That's why it doesn't pay well, you work too much. Now, if you only enter class and do the roll call, then you livin' the life. And believe, that's too much of those teachers here, they do the roll call, sit and tell the students to read the book or do the book exercise, always late to attribute the marks, theses ones are paid very well for what they 'work' for.

      Yea, it was both. My body couldn't keep up and the stress seein' how dirty and corrupt the system is also helped to f**k me up good.

      There're 2 types of elections here. The prefecture and the federal. Mayor and Gov/Pres. They each go for 4y mandate, but the elections between them are 2y. 2018 presidential, 2020 mayor.
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      Yea, he's good now, thankfully. But he gave us a lot of trouble. Tbh, it depends on the people. This cousin I'm speakin' of, took him almost 1y, while I was workin' on a rehab clinic, I've seen people who were there for 2y+, some'd be able to be out in 6 months. The least I've seen was 6 months, though people usually get out earlier, before the end of the treatment 'cause law says it can't have one against their will. Btw, it was at the time I was workin' as volunteer that my cousin and family as a whole started to respect and treat me right, before, I was treated like the prodigy child that went astray, lol.
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      Yea, but they'd have to open the package to know, right? That's not good at all.
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      These things really get under my skin so much that all the progress in my recovery seems lost when I read the news and see sh** like these. Here, rich and politicians, when they're caught, it takes years to prosecute, and they only are in jail for few days, months at most - with full privileges. If not, they're just at home arrest, like, not being able to leave their luxurious mansions with big pools, etc.

      At least we can 'not vote' at all, by annulling our votes so it doesn't count to anyone. That's what I've been doin' for the past 16y, lol.
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      Yea, Falco kinda idolized Reiner, right? Seeing him that lost and guilty should've shocked the boy. That's why I wanted to see some of the reactions, so I can grasp the moral of the story, if there's one, that is.
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      No, no. The streaming tests, with internet and equipments to broadcast. Though I do have more tests and x/rays already booked for next year/month.

      Don't mind it. It's really a heavy reading to anyone, specially if one's not into it. Don't worry nor feel bad about it. I totally understand, so much that I still haven't reviewed the contents to see if there's any misspelled word or other mistakes, lol.
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      Yea, said above, but just when I though I was getting better, bam, almost two days in bed, without being able to do much, if at all sometimes. Yes, my nerves and tendons were too much entangled and gettin' too stiff/rigid, so anything'd hurt like hell.

      I'm doing all therapies, stretches and exercises I can in order to soften'em up a bit. While I can move more freely, is far from normal. Still look like an ogre robot with cramps, lol.

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    12. I'm guessing you re-typed your reply? Two of replies were in the spam folder. ^^; I deleted the double one.

      Haha...sounds like some college teachers I've heard/had though it is both in private and public. The type I don't like is having an exam on a topic that the teacher didn't teach.

      I see. And, how many times can they get re-elected? In all positions, the maximum is 3 consecutive terms. So, the family dynasty ones get around it by putting their wife/child on the position and when their term is up, the original mayor takes the position again.

      There was a proposed bill to stop that but then, almost all of the congress people are from family dynasties so they won't approve it.

      But for president, it is only for 6 years and that's it. No more. Before, it is twice but four years I think. But a dictator abused it so, the new constitution forbids it. Hehe, but that doesn't stop former presidents from keeping on trying to change the constitution to prolong their terms.

      Their excuse is that they don't have enough time to reform, etc the country. But the people believe is that they aren't finish stealing money from the government. =P

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      That's good. And, there is no 'lasting symptoms'? I mean, side effect from using drugs before?

      Is the length of time proportionate to the length of addiction? Or, it is based on personality? I read that people use drugs mostly due to personal problems. Here, there are poor who use them to forget their hunger or to 'energize' them for long hours of work.

      Prodigy child that went astray...astray is...? Different way of thinking? Usually, astray means doing something bad.

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      Yup. They actually do open the package so the receiver knew that something might be missing. They don't hide that at all. You're lucky if the culprit is caught but don't expect the missing thing would be returned to you intact.

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      It's the same here. Recently, some rich suspects got a 75% discount on their bail for their criminal cases. People can only jokingly ask, is it a Christmas discount? Money obviously changed hands.

      Ah yes, if you are allied with the current admin, you can even ask for a Christmas break at your house. If not, well, 'rot in jail'.

      Oh, I recall that there was this rich kid, whose uncle is supposedly a drug lord and he is also friend of the president shot someone [still alive] due to a road altercation. Even if he was caught, he asked if he can go to a US-Canada cruise with his family since they already booked it last year. The judge says okay. And, that's the last time I heard about that case.

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      Haha, ya. If we have that here, I would go for that.

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      I see.

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      Oh. For your site. I see. Have fun learning something new ^^ Hope the blood tests and xrays are good = didn't get any worse. Ah...what blood test are you taking? Is it related to the spine or it is just a general test for health like cholesterol, sugar, etc.

      Haha. I see. So, you type it directly there? For me, I type it first in a word processor. I'm not fond of typing online since it can cause me a lot of grief especially if everything is erased for some reason. ^^;

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      I see. Well, things like that are quite unpredictable like when I had my dialysis. At times, mind is clear and I thought I have adapted to it. Then, the next day/hours, bam...I'm in lala land with very bad symptoms from the dialysis and kidney failure. ^^;

      Just take one day at a time and do what you have to do when you're feeling better ^^

      Happy holidays and Merry Christmas ^^

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    13. Lol, yea! I actually wrote more, but as I'd click to publish, it'd suddenly disappear, that's why you see two posts + the ones in spam. Sorry 'bout that.
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      I've seen some college teachers like that, luckily, I was blessed with good teachers in general. I mean, there were some that even I was better, and I was 15y at the time, lol.
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      Two times in a row, but they can run for another function afterwards, and even the same position, like Lula is trying to do next year - to my horror.

      Here we don't actually see family dynasties in politics, we see much more often in big companies and tv stations. But there is in politics too, make no mistake, is just less noticeable than private companies.

      It's always the same excuse in anywhere in the world, huh? Sometimes the congress don't approve of a program 'cause they want to make the guy look bad to the people, so you have to buy the congress or get into the same puddle as them, which kills anyone trying to be honest.
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      Ah, most drugs'll leave side effects, like scars on the skin, or even some mental damage, but it depends much more on the user and how much did one use.

      No, it's personal. My cousin spent more than half his life using drugs, he did abuse it for about 5y or so, but in less than a 1y he could have been 'discharched'. Some I've seen said that they've been using for less than 6 months, but were so far down in the hole that they had to spend more than 1y. And ofc, there're those that unfortunately relapse and start using again, so they go one more time to rehab. In my little time working there, I've seen at least three people that had relapses and needed to go back to clean themselves again.

      It's 'cause everyone in my family used to have such high hopes for me and I didn't leave up to any of them, in a way. Like, when I as trying to go pro in football/soccer, I was really good, but had two injuries that finished my career before even started. And they knew I was good, so, having failed this, but having the top5 best grades in school and college, they again put high hopes on me, only for me to go volunteer in some god forsaken land, or work as freelancer. They expected too many things of me, I didn't deliver so I went astray in their eyes, only when they saw what I really did - my cousin, for instance - they started to respect me as I am, not seeing me as what they expected/wanted.

      You know, the great hope to have someone in the family famous or super rich - I failed them, lol.
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      Well, now I'm worried and I bet they do the same here, lol. Fortunately, I only had these problems I mentioned recently.
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      Wow, just, wow...

      It seems like a joke, but I know it's true, here's the same in lots of ways. Those things just make me really mad.
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      Well, tbh, I'm having more headaches than fun, lol. But hopefully it'll work out soon, since I'm only doing this as a way to treat myself, like, having something to do that'd make me glad or proud of myself and give me some boost in wanting to live and get better. Mostly psychological stuff, but like I said, I'd do anything I can to get better, or at the very least, try it.

      It's related to both, actually. Since I'm having more and more issues, not only due to the spine, they think it might be something else, along with psychological things. The thing I know I don't have - at least yet - is high cholesterol nor diabetes.
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      I do, and when something goes wrong, you saw the result, right? lol. Sometimes I remember to copy the text, most of the times is just gone, hahaha.

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    14. Yea, I've been like that lately. I'm thinking is due to the new medication, my body is reacting in a strange way to it. I'm having chills, fever, nausea and dizziness all of the sudden. So much that I spent the Christmas alone, in bed 'cause I didn't want to ruin anyone else's party.

      They sent me cakes tho, so all is good, lol.

      Thank you Kat, though late, I hope you had a good holiday along with the people you love. Happy holidays!

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    15. Is that so. Ah, when you clicked it, was it pressed twice? I'm curious what is triggering some comments into spam. ^^;

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      Haha...and those teachers aren't newbies?

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      I see. Here, it is pretty much like that except for being president. I'm not sure about vice president though since no one runs for that position twice.

      How do they make family dynasty less noticeable in politics? Here, it is super obvious because of their surname. Here, a place is almost always associated with a surname. Like this surname, you know that politician and family belongs to this province. They are there for years or even decades. They hold the mayor, vice-mayor, and congress. If they are 'popular' enough, they'll aim for national posts like senators/president/vice president.

      Yup.

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      Scars on the skin...due to pricks? Or, caused by the medicine?

      Oh, I mean, your cousin has personal issues why he took drugs? Something like wanting to escape from reality or pain? Trying to forget. Unless, it is party drugs...for a high.

      Oh, I see. For me, they don't expect that since I have an excuse 'poor health'. There is also no expectations to get married. =P Lol, I'm pretty much what they considered as 'damaged goods'.

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      Indeed. But, people cannot do anything about it. Most of the time, people would just wish 'karma' on the bad people and that's it.

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      Ah, true. It is problematic at first but soon, you'll get the hang of it. That's a nice project. I did something similar before, too...the outcome is this blog ^^

      Ah...small blessings ^^ Keep positive. My psyche teacher told us before that it can affect health. I think it's true.

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      Haha, true. Here, there were times when there are brownouts/electric interruptions. After typing things up, I forgot to save. Ah, screams...then the light suddenly come on. Thankfully these days, there are auto-save so at least a part is saved.

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      I see. New medicines huh. I recalled when I changed medicines. It was during my sis' wedding. Bad mistake. Perhaps, along with food poisoning of some sort, I ended up sick at their hotel room during the reception which I missed. ^^;;

      How nice ^^ You have a sweet tooth?

      You're welcome and no problem ^^

      Same to you ^-^ Hope you're well soon again in time for the next KoT chapter ^^

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    16. I don't know, I actually had to post a couple of times 'cause it said it was sent. Then I came back and didn't see any message at all, so I wrote again, and you know the rest, lol.
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      No, not newbies. Though now even the new teachers are like that, so we're just walking towards stupidness, and that's what they want.
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      Yea, in theory, the president shouldn't run to anything else after his mandate, but there were a lot of'em in the senate and other places.

      It's more because, believe or not, there're a lot of people with the same surname here. So, if someone called Silva here, the same surname of Lula, you wouldn't know if he's his son or if part at the same family, or not at all. And like that, we never know who's who unless you devote yourself towards politics and know people. Only the ones with a 'rare' surnames are noticeable enough for 'normal' people.
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      Yea, and sometimes drugs causes rashes, dry skin that easily tear, I've seen people losing teeth due to messed up immune system and so on.

      Tbh, it was because he was young and dumb; later it became a way to escape reality, but he never had a hard life except some criticism from my uncle - that was a stern teacher, and my cousin was never one to study, anything.

      Wow, damaged goods? That doesn't have a nice meaning over here, and I don't think in anywhere else in the world. Only 'cause of your poor health? I don't know how it must feel to not have any pressure, but it doesn't seem like a very good feeling. Though I too always have been very ill since birth, my first pneumonia was when I was 8 months old, lol. That's why I always did sports and extra-classes since very little.

      Hahaha, I already said that if it's up to me, my mom won't be seeing any grandchildren at all, lol.
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      Yea, karma hardly ever comes, but when it comes it's good to see.
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      I do, I do. Like I said, at the very least I try anything to get better, and as someone who delved into psychology too, I know how our minds can affect our bodies. So I do try. Yesterday I could stream for a while, it was kinda fun. I'll try again later today, if I'm feelin' a bit better.
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      When that happens I just stop myself for a while and count, so I don't turn any tables and hurt my back even further, lol.
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      Yea, that's one helluva side effects I'm having right now. Sad that it's in the holidays, but what to do? I need to see if it'll work, and the only way of that is taking the damn meds for at least one week or more.

      Wow, I can't imagine. Did people blame you or anything for 'ruining' your sis marriage?
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      Actually I don't, I prefer meat over anything else, though I can't have right now since my body is all over the place, but there are these exceptions like the ice cream I mentioned sometime ago, and this cake in particular, made of chocolate and cherries. I do love me some cherries, that I gotta say, lol.
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      Hopefully, yea. Like I said, this chapter touched me in a personal way. It hit right at my room, instead of close to home, lol.

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    17. I see. Perhaps, next time, if it was sent, just mention it and I'll check if it is in the spam folder. Hope it isn't that stressful or anything especially due to your health status.

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      Oh, I see. It is the same here and it is unfortunate since the poor can barely earn to send their children to school, yet the quality isn't that good except for private expensive schools. Of course, there are exceptions.

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      Yup. They're so greedy that they won't give others a chance. In your place, does most of the wealth of the country belongs to a few? It is like that here. So, those rich people would usually put their money on politicians for them to share the wealth among themselves through connections. As usual, the poor becomes poorer. The middle class, well, a lot have already went overseas.

      Oh...that's interesting. Here, they would joke/teasingly ask if you're related to this and that if your surname is the same with a certain popular person/clan. These days, most of the ultra rich are either Spanish/Chinese-sounding surnames.

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      I see. And the dry skin are deep enough to cause scars. Ah, that is caused by chemical-type of drugs, I presume? In comparison to marijuana.

      Oh.

      Well, it doesn't sound nice. The other term would be 'factory defect'. ^^; Well, there is no pressure on marriage but there is on some other areas in life. ^^ I don't know about there, but here, if you are past 25 years old, your parents and relatives would pester you to get married especially during reunions. Lol

      A cousin who is in the same age as me are always pestered by that question. His mother kept on asking relatives to introduce girls to him. He had a girlfriend before but the girl is rich. The parents don't like him since he isn't rich enough for them.

      Haha...that won't make her happy, right?

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      True ^^

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      That's good ^^ Have fun ^^

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      Lol. Count to 10?

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      I see. Well, hope it works to compensate for the side effects.

      Actually, it wasn't ruined at all. I'm just away from the reception. They went through it as usual. I even made a crappy animation for their wedding. My mom missed the 'thank you ceremony' though since she was looking after me. ^^; After the reception, I went home with the family. Hopefully, the hotel room didn't smell like too much like a 'sick person was there' afterwards. ^^;;;

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      Oh...black forest cake? Is that so...hm...never heard of one shouldn't eat meat with spine problems. Is it for you to have easier digestion? Or, it has something to do with the medicines ^^

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      Happy reading ^^

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