Skip Beat! [Chapter 203]

And, it turns out to be a mirror. Kyouko sees herself in it and wonders if she is going to pull up the curtains or not. It not only meant making these feelings for Ren that she meticulously suppressed to sprout and grow but also... She obviously knew that he is totally in pain but for a split second, she wanted this kind of situation to continue, thus, she is also going to make that ugly thoughts recklessly grow. She doesn’t want that nor imagine a crueler[/more mean] thing since it won’t be just a ‘split second’ but possibly wanting it to continue forever and this scares her. Lory tells her not to look away. Making other people’s unhappiness as one’s ‘peace’ and even if she knows but still desired it, that feeling, which is ‘ugly’. It makes her have that despaired expression. He says that right now, she should firmly gaze into that feeling for some day, she is definitely going to use that for her acting. Lory starts to tell her that it is possible to use imagination to act but there is some that cannot be acted out without experiencing it and those expressions are not limited to love. He tells her that her goal is to become a first-rate actress but if there is nothing else in her life, it is pointless. Even if it is some experience that are not worth envying by others, there is also definitely meaning[/point] to it. Kyouko starts to recall how she used her bad experiences in life to be part of her acting – her mother leaving/hating her and her work at Shou’s inn. He asks her that the first time she came to LME’s audition[/selection], she didn’t prepare to do anything big in showbiz which he heard from her manager. He won’t ask in detail the reason but why did she come to Tokyo, got in LME and met Ren. That is she wants to experience becoming some kind of female high schooler who doesn’t have[/cannot possess] love. Kyouko recalls Shou asking her to come together with him and later on, daring her to go into showbiz as her ‘revenge’. Then, she told Ren that it is revenge on Shou that made Ren angrily tell her that things won’t go smoothly with only strong willpower. Kyouko thinks that the first time she met him was awful and because he hated her, she also hated him but unknowingly--.. Lory says that things reached up to this point and does she want to treat it as if nothing had happened for this can be said, as a once in a blue moon[/rare] encounter, thoughts towards Ren. Kyouko tearfully thinks that it is like paving the way, since she was a child, starting to directly walk towards Ren, even if it is like this, a person like her fundamentally has no possibility of resisting.

While stuttering, she tells Lory that going to hell is okay, even if she forever doesn’t hope[/wish] Ren to have a conjugal union with someone..that kind of happiness is also alright. Lory chuckles and says that if she has that kind of consciousness to go challenge it, even if it is Yama [king of hell] will somewhat respect [her]. Kyouko thinks that she will be definitely be punished for duplicating this world’s hypocrisy sin, and she’ll use her soul to atone for it so please forgive her. She takes the mirror to look at her expression. She mutters that it is really ugly. She hopes to be forgiven for having impressive thoughts[/longing] towards that guy, only within her heart. Later on, Lory looks out the window and says that in the end, he was rejected. Lory’s assistant says yes, hardly any hesitation and what of puffy eyes, that is proof of an actress growing, bravely taking a step outside by herself and going to work. Lory somewhat smiles and says that it is truly embarrassing. This made the assistant apologize for in the end, he should have use all kinds of methods to drive Kyouko to her workplace for how can he let a girl looking like that out in the streets. Lory says that he isn’t talking about him, he is talking to himself. While twirling around the globe, Lory thinks that it is quite a shock for the current him finally understand her feelings and all this time, he unexpectedly hasn’t seen through it. Flashback: He had asked sniffing Kyouko when she started to like Ren. Kyouko told him that she doesn’t really know but there was a premonition, a feeling of getting Ren’s magic. <- when Ren kissed Corn. End flashback. Lory is in shock for it started after Dark Moon’s acting audition when he thought that while acting as the ‘Heel Siblings’, Kyouko’s treatment[/healing] would be a thorough success. It turns out that Lory has been in disguise two days before but since they didn’t notice him, so he decided to dress in a flashy way. =P Always until that moment [of seeing Kyouko’s expression when Ren hugged her], he thought that his pride was hurt BUT it is hurts a lot more now. His confidence has taken a beating for he felt that it was strange when Kyouko was talking on the phone about Ren and he had some doubts but in the end, it was true. He was totally deceived by that girl’s acting. He starts laughing and thinks that Ren had absolutely not noticed Kyouko’s feelings. That girl is quite reliable and it would be better not to let the current Ren notice it for it would be pitiful for dogs to be signaled for food but there’s nothing to eat. He recalls telling Kyouko not to look away, her goal is to be a top-rate actress and she looks at herself on the mirror. Lory holds the globe and thinks that he really wants to see, polished a bit, an international[/worldwide] actress. He twirls the globe again and stops at the Japan area. “But, before that..” Outside the streets, a plane flies above. Kyouko looks at it with a smile, and walks forward. Next chapter will be out in Japan on September 20th. Again, SEPTEMBER 20th.

Comment: And, Kyouko has decided to keep those feelings to herself but then, she is no longer going to suppress them including the 'ugly' ones. Apparently, she isn’t the clueless type. She already knew that she has fallen in love with Ren since that time but she is in denial, suppressing it for a long time and use all sort of acting to cover it up. It seems that she is fearful of the jealousy side of love that would make her think of ‘ugly’ thoughts. In that, she was successful in covering it up until she let down her guard because of the Heel siblings thing, and Lory saw her. From Lory’s comment, it appears that things are not ready for both..well, perhaps Ren, to know about the truth. Aside from the love aspect, the conversation also included acting tips. Lory cleverly made Kyouko accept those feelings by suggesting that she can use them for her acting later on. Lory has realized her potential to be an international actress and with this, I really think that if Ren goes back to the US, Kyouko will be going with him. I’m excited over that though it will take a very long time if it will ever be shown. ^^; It is amusing to see Lory’s reaction upon realizing how long Kyouko managed to dupe him. I wonder what Ren’s reaction will be. Well, it is interesting to see how Kyouko can look up the sky/light when she fears it before going to Lory’s place. Accepting those feelings had improved her outlook and I wonder how things will change from here on after this. Nevertheless, as usual, Kyouko is moving forward ^^ From how it ended in the last scene, I wonder if this will continue on since it is White Day or it will be a new arc in the next chapter. It will be a longer wait this time, one and a half month. Scans by 红莲汉化组

Word of the day:

When we experience the fiery furnace of suffering—whether physical or emotional, whether persecution from without or humiliation from within— God’s loving purpose is to make us pure and strong. ~ Our Daily Bread