Originally posted @ tatsukida.pitas.com on October 9, 2012
The chapter starts with a lengthy flashback
on Shouta’s reasons and feelings on various scenes. He fears being too
close with Sawako so he took her hand away from him when she touched him
before. When Kent told him about being alone with Sawako, he thinks
that Sawako will hate it. He feels that his heart is quite
narrow[/selfish]. He wanted her to belong to him but that will make
Sawako’s hard work [to blend with others] become meaningless. And, every
time they meet, the one who falls deeper in love is him. End flashback.
He says that he isn’t as good as she thinks yet he doesn’t plan on
giving her to someone else. Then, he repeats about liking her and yet,
perhaps, he can’t treasure her. And even if that is so, he absolutely
does not want to leave her. He might be the one who is hurting her more
than anyone else, when he obviously wanted to match[/suit] her. He
becomes more afraid that he is becoming more selfish and all the more he
becomes unreasonable. Shouta is surprised that Sawako is holding his
hand with both of her hands. She asks if he didn’t notice..that he’s the
only one who can hurt her. She isn’t move if it is with other people,
it is only him and from today on, if they are at loggerheads or a
quarrel, but even if they are, it is okay, only if the other party is
him, and even if this is wrong[/a mistake], it is okay. Towako thinks if
both of them can eliminate their problem together, their love will
continue to mature. Then, they exchange gifts and to their surprise,
they gave each other gloves. They happily tried it on together. Then,
they tied some ‘wishes/charms’ in the café.
As they leave, they are about to hold their hands but Shouta
apologizes and says they do it again. This time, they removed their
gloves and hold hands. While walking, Sawako says that about what he
said that the Shouta she thinks in her heart isn’t the same in reality,
but she thinks that she isn’t mistaken for the impression he gave her
and the things he said are all true. Shouta smiles at her. Sawako thinks
that even if it isn’t true, it is alright even if everything is fake
for simultaneously, everything is real. At a ramen store, Pin is airing
his complaints about Shouta being too stubborn and inflexible when he
made up his mind. He would be even too strict with himself but of
course, it isn’t a bad thing. It is shown that Pin is eating with Ryu
and Chizuru. Pin kept on yapping about Shouta not showing his weakness
though he understands him. If one doesn’t recognize one’s weakness then
he won’t recognize other people’s weakness. He tells the two to remember
the thing he is saying just now. Chizuru has had enough that she shouts
that he’s too noisy that she can’t concentrate eating. Pin says that
she’s noisy when he is obviously saying some good counsel and they
should be grateful. Ryu’s father[?] says that it is unexpected for Pin
to argue with his students on Christmas eve. Ryu just continues to eat
his ramen. Pin urges them to make Shouta expresses weakness but Chizuru
exclaims that Shouta will only do that towards Sawako. Seeing Ryu
smiling at her, Chizuru exclaims that it is really hard to do. Pin
comments that Chizuru is overly excited about Christmas. At the train
station, Ayane and Kent are waiting together for the train to arrive.
And back to the main couple, Shouta puts their hands in his pocket.
Then, some more thoughts from Sawako about ‘going steady’ – more love,
more trouble and everything can’t just be regarded as ‘nothing at all’,
she would want to properly confirm these feelings between them. Sawako
tells Shouta that ‘not knowing oneself’ also exists within her heart for
she was jealous of that guy [whom Shouta exchanged gift with]. This
surprises Shouta. Sawako admits to him that she can be jealous and her
desire to monopolize is very strong. Near her house, Sawako tells him
that it is okay for him to walk her up to here. When Shouta tries to
protest, she leans towards him and gives him a kiss on the cheek.
Blushing really red, Sawako apologizes for calling him a liar-something.
Then, she runs towards her house. Touching his face where she kissed
him, Shouta starts to blush. He bends down and says that everything
doesn’t matter anymore even if he is a liar throughout his lifetime.
Inside, Sawako says that she is home. To her father’s shock, Sawako’s
mother says that Sawako is early for she thought Sawako is going to pass
the night with Shouta. She asks Sawako if Shouta brought her home.
Sawako says yes. She apologizes for coming home late. Sawako’s father
nervously tells her not to mind it because in the end, she respected the
agreement and today is special. Her mother says that she is freezing so
she better take a bath first. Sawako says yes. While taking a bath, she
remembers the kiss. She blushes while touching her lips. “16 years old,
ultimate[/final] secret.”
It is really amusing how much these two are alike, even their issues,
that is why they were in a ‘stalemate’ for so long. They do seem to
overanalyze things, being selfish = bad, wants to share the other to the
others, etc. The way Shouta was saying that, I thought, it is pretty
much what Sawako has been agonizing about. They even gave each other the
same type of gift. =P I think it is good that Shouta is a ‘good guy’
regarding how Sawako thinks that everything, if it is him, is alright.
It gave me a feeling of being ‘martyr’ type but maybe it is okay because
it is Shouta. ^^ With Sawako’s kiss, I guess this couple has overcome
this major bump on their road. As for Chizuru, it seems that she is
somewhat a long way to go before being honest with Ryu regarding her
feelings. I think regarding what Pin said, she meant that she can’t
easily show her weakness to Ryu = hard to do. Christmas is over so
perhaps, more lovey-dovey in New Year at the next chapter? Scans by
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