Chapter 10: Innocence Thinking that she has to ask clearly to know about Rennosuke’s feelings so that she can put an end to this, Hana seriously asks, “Rennosuke, do you like Takitsuki-san?” To her surprise, he answers, “...I also don’t know.” After a pause, Hana says, “..Eh? What did you just say..” With closed eyes, Rennosuke says that he just said that he also doesn’t know. Grabbing his robe, Hana exclaims, “Ha..!? What do you mean you don’t know.” Looking sad, Rennosuke says that it means exactly what those words mean. Hana tensely asks, “..why? Just by looking, I can see that you are really concerned with Takitsuki-san. I beg of you, sincerely answer my question. I totally cannot accept this answer.” Looking surprised, Rennosuke asks what she is referring to as she cannot accept. Patting on the seating cushion, Hana sternly says, “If you don’t explain it clearly, I’m going to Takitsuki-san and inform her that you’ve attacked me, okay!? Now, quickly come and sit here.” Rennosuke is speechless. He sighs and did as told. Hana thinks that she knows that what she is doing is quite unyielding[/stubborn] but in the end, she still wants to know the answer. “Before I sever these feelings of mine, I want to know Rennosuke’s feelings--” After sitting down, Rennosuke admits to Hana that up to right now, he is still very concerned with Takitsuki. “It is only because of her happiness, that no matter what it is, I would want to try and do it [for her]. But, that isn’t my duty. *Hana looks a bit tense* The first time that I’ve met Takitsuki.. no, met Utae, it has already been 15 years since. At that time, as the second son of Kyoumatsu, it has been decided that I become the son-in-law [marrying into the girl’s family] of Utae’s family that has a gofuku [other name of kimono] at the capital city. Although, the first impression isn’t quite good..”
August 26, 2012
Yoshiwara Hana Oboro [Chapters 10-11]
Originally posted @ tatsukida.pitas.com on August 23, 2012
Chapter 10: Innocence Thinking that she has to ask clearly to know about Rennosuke’s feelings so that she can put an end to this, Hana seriously asks, “Rennosuke, do you like Takitsuki-san?” To her surprise, he answers, “...I also don’t know.” After a pause, Hana says, “..Eh? What did you just say..” With closed eyes, Rennosuke says that he just said that he also doesn’t know. Grabbing his robe, Hana exclaims, “Ha..!? What do you mean you don’t know.” Looking sad, Rennosuke says that it means exactly what those words mean. Hana tensely asks, “..why? Just by looking, I can see that you are really concerned with Takitsuki-san. I beg of you, sincerely answer my question. I totally cannot accept this answer.” Looking surprised, Rennosuke asks what she is referring to as she cannot accept. Patting on the seating cushion, Hana sternly says, “If you don’t explain it clearly, I’m going to Takitsuki-san and inform her that you’ve attacked me, okay!? Now, quickly come and sit here.” Rennosuke is speechless. He sighs and did as told. Hana thinks that she knows that what she is doing is quite unyielding[/stubborn] but in the end, she still wants to know the answer. “Before I sever these feelings of mine, I want to know Rennosuke’s feelings--” After sitting down, Rennosuke admits to Hana that up to right now, he is still very concerned with Takitsuki. “It is only because of her happiness, that no matter what it is, I would want to try and do it [for her]. But, that isn’t my duty. *Hana looks a bit tense* The first time that I’ve met Takitsuki.. no, met Utae, it has already been 15 years since. At that time, as the second son of Kyoumatsu, it has been decided that I become the son-in-law [marrying into the girl’s family] of Utae’s family that has a gofuku [other name of kimono] at the capital city. Although, the first impression isn’t quite good..”
Flashback: Aghast young Utae told him, “My family is not recognizing
this engagement. Quickly, go home.” The old man with Rennosuke laughed.
Rennosuke thought that it is a very strong[-willed] girl. Utae’s mother
is freaking out as she calls Utae’s name. Looking at her mother, Utae
said that this is something that her father had decided on his own.
Utae’s mother nervously tried to save face by apologizing to Rennosuke
for Utae’s rudeness. Rennosuke smiled and told her that no, it is okay,
he doesn’t mind. Utae’s mother is awed by this and Utae looked
displeased. Rennosuke answered that way because he is a bit intelligent
for his age at that time so he is an arrogant child who can see the
situation, frankly say things. Thus, it is quite hard to act his age and
since everyone in his house is saying that as the second son, he has to
control his words and actions. There is a scene of an older man
reprimanding Rennosuke that he knows that Rennosuke can do it but at
least give some qualms about the eldest’s son’s ‘saving face’. And for
Rennosuke that is a technique for his own survival. [<- adapting]
While Utae’s mother is saying that he is really cute, smiling Rennosuke
thought, “Stupid, even if it is me, I also really detest this kind of
girl who is seemingly strong [willed].” Narration: “But, I didn’t know
when it started, my hidden true feelings.. gradually, I cannot say out
loud my true thoughts.” Utae is quietly scowling. Then, she suddenly
rushed to Rennosuke and grabbed his chin with her hand. Looking dark,
Utae said, “Let me tell you, just now, didn’t you just thought, ‘even if
it is me, I also really detest this kind of girl. *Rennosuke went !?* I
only have to look at someone’s face and I can generally know what that
person is thinking. *Rennosuke thought, ‘what!?’* Don’t show such an
ugly smiling face. If you thought that you can use that on me, you are
making a huge mistake!!” And, Rennosuke was shock from the bottom of his
heart for he obviously had hid his true feelings well and it is only
Utae who noticed it.
Narration: “In front of Utae, I cannot hide anything. With Utae
beside me, I can show my true side. In my heart, Utae has become that
kind of existence. And because from the start she is a girl who is
outspoken and violent [<- she would hit people] so when we quarreled,
I never once won against her. It made me a bit frustrated, but I hope
that one day, I’ll be able to stand and walk forever beside her. That is
what I’ve wished for, however..” One day, the two are carrying some
rolls of cloth[/scrolls]. Rennosuke is complaining on how angry he is
for why would that samurai act like that and it is because of this that
he doesn’t like helping in the store. Utae agreed with him and said what
the big deal about being merchants from Kyouyashiki [京屋敷, from Jap wiki
with the help of babelfish, it seems to be a residential place where
daimyou and samurais live near the capital]. Someone overheard them and
said that he is startled for she is quite outspoken. They looked at the
side to see a wide-eyed boy saying that he heard that Kyoto people are
quite strong[-willed] so does it also apply with the women. Narration:
“And, on that day, we met Kiyomasa.” [For some reason, Kiyomasa’s hair
here is dark instead of light. ^^; I guess the author decided to make
him dark haired.] Aghast Rennosuke stood in front of Utae and apologized
for Utae’s outspokenness. Kiyomasa laughed and said that actually, if
the bosses [/uncles] heard that, they might scold her for being such an
arrogant girl, then they’ll take a sword and cut her down. To
Rennosuke’s surprise, Utae answered back that if she has something to
say, she’ll say it straightforwardly. “If you’re also resentful about
it, young master, you can also do that.” To the two’s surprise,
wide-eyed Kiyomasa said, “Why? I like people like you. *approached them*
Where did you guys come from?” Utae thought that this isn’t the same as
the usual that she doesn’t know how to deal with this one.
Narration: “He is obviously the son of a daimyou who resides in
Kyouyashiki but he’s very friendly[/intimate].. Unlike me, he’s a very
direct boy whether inside or outside. Although from the start, I can’t
quite take his directness.” Rennosuke looked aghast upon seeing Kiyomasa
crawling down on the bushes at the courtyard. Rennosuke said, wait, did
he just secretly went out of his house again. Kiyomasa replied that he
did, because compared at home, it is more fun to be with him. Rennosuke
went huh. Narration: “But, I also felt happy over Kiyomasa’s frankness
in speech and action. And, at this aspect, Utae is also like that. *Utae
patted away the leaves from Kiyomasa and scolded him for what is he
doing* I don’t know when I’ve started to faintly notice that the two are
mutually attracted to each other.” Looking aghast and tense, Rennosuke
thinks that even if it isn’t really bad but if this kind of situation
continues on, what is the best thing for him to do. Narration: “Even if
I’m very indecisive [/waver], Utae and Kiyomasa’s status aren’t the same
and they can’t be together. The two of them should also clearly know
about this. *Kiyomasa happily called him. Utae told Rennosuke to quickly
come or else, they’ll leave him* I don’t want to reveal this reality
and hurt these two. The feeling between the three of us is also good and
the most important is Utae. In front of Kiyomasa, she has this smiling
expression that I have never seen before. But there will be a day when
they’ll part. And afterwards, it is okay for me to just take my
responsibility and support Utae on because this relationship will not
last a long time. So always until that day--”
While walking in the streets, Rennosuke noticed that Kiyomasa is
looking at something. He asked him what he is looking at. Kiyomasa said
that it is nothing, he only thinks that this [hairpin] is very beautiful
that he would always look at it. Then, he told Rennosuke that they
should go. Rennosuke quietly looked at him. Narration: “Regarding the
two’s feelings, I pretended not to have noticed it. But those kinds of
days had a limit for in a day, a great change had happened. Utae’s house
is totally engulfed by a huge fire. Later on, Rennosuke called out to
Utae who is leaving with a man. Rennosuke exclaimed that if it is true
when she said that she is going to Yoshiwara. “Why would you suddenly do
that!?” Utae replied, “Asking why.. This is also inevitable. Whether it
is my house or my family, everything has been burned up into nothing.
And, we owe a lot of money. And I don’t want to trouble the Kyoumatsu
family into taking care of me.” Rennosuke retorted back that it isn’t
necessary for her to assume responsibility for everything all by
herself. “Why.” Utae told him not to say anything more for this is
something that they can control. Rennosuke also knew that he is
powerless and he is only furious over his helplessness. Rennosuke asked
her if Kiyomasa knows about this. Utae told him that it isn’t necessary
to tell him. The man called out to Utae that it is almost time to go.
Utae said okay. Aside from that, Rennosuke couldn’t say anything else.
Somewhat smiling, Utae told him to take care. Then, she started to walk
away together with the man. Gritting his teeth, Rennosuke thought, “No.
Don’t leave me. Who’ll stop Utae from leaving.” Then, someone is calling
out to Utae. It is Kiyomasa.
Chapter 11: Rise and Fall Cover page: “The more I understand
you.. the more I can’t stop this feeling..” While Rennosuke wondered
who’ll stop Utae, Kiyomasa appeared and called out to Utae. He asked the
two why they didn’t tell him. Utae looked away and angrily said that
this has nothing to do with him. “Quickly go back to your house.”
Rennosuke and Kiyomasa were surprised by Utae’s outburst. Utae
apologized to the man for making him wait, and they should go. Kiyomasa
chased after her and grabbed her shoulder. He shouted for her to wait,
she cannot go. Utae hit his hand off her and told him not to touch her.
“This is my chosen path!! Playing this going steady thing with a young
master who don’t know the world’s pain and difficulties is also very
tiring and this is fine.” The two look surprised at Utae. Narration:
“Utae, the reasons that she said, all of a sudden, I’ve realized. Utae
hates showing her weak side to others. Even if her house is totally
burned down, even if she lost her parents, she also didn’t shed a single
tear in front of others, but-- In front of Kiyomasa, she couldn’t do
it.” Covering her face, crying Utae said, “It’s enough. Don’t hinder me
again..” Looking serious, Kiyomasa gently replied, “I’m sorry.. I don’t
want you to be in pain so.. *took her hand and gave her the hairpin* It
is only this.. can you take it. *Utae looked surprised over the hairpin*
You’re a very strong girl that even if you go to Yoshiwara, you’ll also
definitely be okay. But.. I think that there will be times when you’ll
be exhausted. During those times.. just look at this and recall that
there is still someone who’ll always think of you from the bottom of his
heart.” After Utae took the hairpin from Kiyomasa, Rennosuke would just
watch her leave. Narration: “The one who can be at Utae’s side isn’t
me. I’ve already clearly know this point. Pretending not to have noticed
their feelings is also because I’m looking forward to the day when I
can also become Utae’s support. For Utae, the only one she needs to
support her is ‘now’ but I can’t do anything--” End flashback
While smoking, Rennosuke tells Hana that generally he only has those
feelings that has always been lingering deep inside until today. “That’s
all there is to it. So, are you satisfied?” Looking wide-eyed, Hana
says, “...is that so.. is that how it is.. huhuhu” Aghast, Rennosuke
exclaims why she is crying. Hana thinks that Rennosuke cannot directly
tell Takitsuki his feelings because he knows that his feelings cannot be
conveyed to the other. His feelings will just make Takitsuki and others
perplexed so he absolutely couldn’t say it. Hana apologizes to him for
making him say those things. Hana realizes now that she had just
stubbornly made him say out his painful memories. Rennosuke tells her
that it is alright and it isn’t necessary for her to apologize for it.
“And- Even if it’s the first time I’ve mentioned this to anyone.. But, I
felt that it seems that I can sort out a bit my own feelings. It
appears that this had affected me greatly, more than I’ve imagined.
Since childhood, having those ‘longing for’ feelings for Takitsuki, my
own anxiety over not being able to do something, these had all affected
me until now and it is becoming deeper.. If it is the current me.. if
there is a way for me to get Takitsuki and Kiyomasa to be together, I
would want to try and make that happen. Right now, Kiyomasa didn’t even
hesitate in resisting the Shogun [‘s orders] and also came to see
Takitsuki. And because Takitsuki also knew clearly of what Kiyomasa is
thinking, so she came and used that method to drive away Kiyomasa who
had come to Yoshiwara. [<- returning the hairpin] That is for
Kiyomasa, the son of a daimyou, to not come to Yoshiwara at will. It is
really in line with Takitsuki’s way of doing things..” Hana says is that
so, it is because daimyou-s had been restricted from coming in
Yoshiwara. She asks if in the end, it is hard for those two to be
together. Rennosuke says that if it is before, Kiyomasa would have been
able to redeem Takitsuki [by settling her expenses, debts, and others
before the end of the contract in order for her to stop this kind of
work] but in case, someone knew that he went in Yoshiwara, there is a
possibility that he’ll be strip off as a heir, status, and the right to
inherit properties. Perhaps, if we are to say that doesn’t matter at all
for Kiyomasa but Takitsuki is a tayuu so it isn’t that easy to
‘escape’. And if they[/she] got arrested, they generally will suffer a
painful punishment worse than death. I also want to do something for
them.. But just like before, I also cannot do anything..”
Hana thinks that for Rennosuke, no matter what Takitsuki-san has
become, she is an important existence to him. “If that is how it is,
I..” Hana pinches Rennosuke’s cheek and exclaims that she doesn’t care
about Yoshiwara’s regulations!! “Yoshiwara’s prohibitions, and also the
Shogun’s prohibitions, for me, those are all nonsense *Rennosuke
holds his pinched cheek and seemed puzzled over what Hana just said
[because she just said ‘nonsense’ in English, not Japanese]*
Understand!? From now on in the future, it is already okay since both
sides’ feelings are the mutual. Your problem is like this- *gestures
with her fingers* so small like a rice grain!! For you to want to do
something for Takitsuki-san, I believe that it can be done. (I want to
help this kind of Rennosuke) So, don’t show that kind of expression. It
doesn’t suit you one bit. Before you give up, always try and do it! I’ll
also help!!” Rennosuke looks surprised and comments that she is like
this again, acting recklessly. Sparkling Hana proudly poses. Rennosuke
says that for him to be told such things by her, he always felt that he
can do it and it is quite baffling. Waving around her arm, Hana says
that’s right, it is that imposing manner. “If you have decided on doing
it, then let’s start the battle meeting right now--” Then, Hana careless
hit the wall with her hand. Holding her hand, Hana mutters that it
really hurts. Sweatdropping, Rennosuke asks what she is doing. Hana
apologizes for becoming a bit overly excited. Teary-eyed Hana realizes
that her finger is bleeding. Rennosuke smiles at her then tells her to
give her hand to him so that he can see it. To her surprise, he puts it
on his lips and gently bites on it. Blushing Hana hits his head and
shouts what he is doing. Rennosuke says that hurts. “..you’re really
such a strange girl. For me to do this to an ordinary girl, she would
have been so happy that she would lose her life.” Hana looks aghast and
tries to free herself from him. Hana remembers that he is that kind of
guy and what kind of narcissism is that. She tells him to just go and do
that kind of thing to some other girl. Tightening his hold on her hand,
Rennosuke answers, “If it is others, then there’s no meaning to it.
*Hana looks surprised* [You] still don’t understand..? *puts her finger
on his lips* It is because it’s you that [is why] I did it.” This made
blushing Hana look tense. Rennosuke is puzzled for Hana is trembling.
Hana tells him that she won’t fall for it. Pulling her hand away from
him, Hana shouts for him not to tease her for fun. Then, Hana quickly
runs out of the room. Rennosuke laughs and says that there was no
intention to tease her.
Hana goes to her room and curses. Sitting by the window, Hana wonders
what’s up with that guy. “I’ve obviously planned to cut off these
feelings. If this goes on, basically-- nonononono I’m.. going back to my
original world one day. Even if I fall for him, there is also no
outcome. *holding her pendant* But.. he also helped me a lot.. So, I
must repay him back. *holding the pendant with both hands like praying*
Grandpa.. once again wait for me..” Then, Hana hears a sound down below.
She wonders what it is so late in the night. She sees a woman holding a
lantern walking around in a daze. Hana recognizes the woman, it is
Murasaki. Murasaki trips on her kimono and falls down. She drops her
lantern which falls at the side of a building. Hana thinks that is bad
so she quickly heads outside. Katsuki has seen her. Hana rushes to
Murasaki. Irked Murasaki asks her what’s up and it is her again. “Did
you specially come here to laugh at me?” Hana says that she isn’t, she
saw her fall down from her window so she came. Murasaki laughs and says
that she still very friendly. “Just like Akesato.. quit pretending that
you sympathize me. Darn! *reaches out* Where’s the lantern..” Hana turns
around and wonders what that smell is. The lantern on the ground had
started burning the building. Katsuki arrives and asks Hana what she is
doing in the middle of the night. Hana exclaims what to do for it is
burning. Looking aghast, Katsuki exclaims burning, what’s going on.
Murasaki says that she was the one who lit the fire as revenge on
Akesato. Turning around, Katsuki says that if this keeps up, the store
will be in danger. He tells Hana to quickly escape and he’ll call for
help. After he left, Hana asks Murasaki what she did that. Murasaki
tells her not to ask why but she did say the truth, because isn’t it the
most fitting end for her to be sentenced to death for committing arson.
Hana exclaims how can that be. Then, she starts coughing over the
smoke. She tells Murasaki that they should first quickly leave this
place. Looking at the burning building, she thinks that the fire is
spreading really fast. Murasaki calls her stupid for she should just
leave her there, and quickly escape on her own. To Murasaki’s surprise,
Hana puts her arm around her shoulder. Hana tells her no, she must
properly clear the misunderstanding. “Even if I.. don’t really
understand you but until now, you must have a lot of painful
experiences, right..? But.. why are you adding more pain to yourself?”
Murasaki mutters that people from Shiromatsuya are a bunch of fools
that is why she hates them.. Hana looks surprised at teary-eyed
Murasaki. Then, Hana holds on to her and shields her from some burning
beams falling down. Hana thinks that it is hot and the smoke is choking
her. While she is saying that if they don’t quickly leave this place..,
Hana suddenly feels a certain kind of feeling which she felt before. She
suddenly ‘sees’ her crying mother apologizing. This puzzles Hana for
why would she suddenly remember about her mother right now. She notices
that the pendant is shining. She looks up and notices a burning beam
falling straight at them. Murasaki suddenly pushes her away. They are
now separated by some burning wood. Realizing that Murasaki just saved
her, Hana calls out to her to stop [from walking inside] for it is
burning there. Standing amidst the fire, Murasaki sadly says that it is
enough. “This is fine.. I’m already tired of living in Yoshiwara.
*turning to Hana* I remember that you are called Hana.. Sorry about
this.. but can you apologize to Akesato for me? Just say, I’m sorry..
and that will do.” Looking aghast, Hana calls out to Murasaki who is
heading into the fire. And, some burning beams are falling on top of
Murasaki. Then, Hana blacks out. Later on, Hana hears the sound of rain.
She suddenly sits up. She sees a lot of injured people in the room
along with some women. She wonders where she is. Her left arm is
bandaged. Then, Akesato and Katsuki notice that she is awake. They go to
her and exclaim that it is great, she finally woke up. They tell her
that they are at Mitsubaya and the boss, Souemon-sama is temporarily
letting the injured and burned people inside. Remembering the fire, Hana
asks about Murasaki. After a pause, Katsuki tells her that they just
found her remains. Hana is surprised by that. Akesato apologizes and
blames herself for it because she has always been coercing Murasaki that
this had happen. Then, Hana overhears the others saying that it was
Murasaki who set the fire and if they are to talk about the root origin,
it is unavoidable that Akesato is related to it. Everyone is surprised
when Hana stands up and shouts that it isn’t like that. It was an
accident and she clearly knows about it because she has always been
there. “The fire has nothing to do with Akesato-san. Murasaki-san also
wanted to apologize to Akesato-san..!!” Akesato[/Hana] says that she
generally understands Murasaki’s feelings but even if she knows, she
cannot go on like that, and she also can’t change her own feelings.
Then, Rennosuke comes in the room. Katsuki asks him what the
situation of the store is. He tells them that it had started to rain and
the fire has been already being extinguished. “We have to wait until
morning to tidy up the place. It’s too dark that we can’t see things
clearly. Despite of all of this, Hana.. *looks at Hana while holding up
his dripping wet hair* You did a reckless thing again. Forget it.. since
normally, you are also like that but this time, you’re going to pay a
huge price for it. *Hana is puzzled* Even if I did my best to gather it
up..” Rennosuke takes out a pouch and pours out its contents on his
palm. It is the broken pieces of her pendant. Hana wonders if it is when
Murasaki pushed her to safety. Katsuki worriedly calls out to Hana who
looks pale. Hana worriedly thinks that this pendant is essential for her
to be able return to her original world. “And if this is broken, that
means-- I can no longer go back-!?” Scans by 不良汉化组.
Chapter 10: Innocence Thinking that she has to ask clearly to know about Rennosuke’s feelings so that she can put an end to this, Hana seriously asks, “Rennosuke, do you like Takitsuki-san?” To her surprise, he answers, “...I also don’t know.” After a pause, Hana says, “..Eh? What did you just say..” With closed eyes, Rennosuke says that he just said that he also doesn’t know. Grabbing his robe, Hana exclaims, “Ha..!? What do you mean you don’t know.” Looking sad, Rennosuke says that it means exactly what those words mean. Hana tensely asks, “..why? Just by looking, I can see that you are really concerned with Takitsuki-san. I beg of you, sincerely answer my question. I totally cannot accept this answer.” Looking surprised, Rennosuke asks what she is referring to as she cannot accept. Patting on the seating cushion, Hana sternly says, “If you don’t explain it clearly, I’m going to Takitsuki-san and inform her that you’ve attacked me, okay!? Now, quickly come and sit here.” Rennosuke is speechless. He sighs and did as told. Hana thinks that she knows that what she is doing is quite unyielding[/stubborn] but in the end, she still wants to know the answer. “Before I sever these feelings of mine, I want to know Rennosuke’s feelings--” After sitting down, Rennosuke admits to Hana that up to right now, he is still very concerned with Takitsuki. “It is only because of her happiness, that no matter what it is, I would want to try and do it [for her]. But, that isn’t my duty. *Hana looks a bit tense* The first time that I’ve met Takitsuki.. no, met Utae, it has already been 15 years since. At that time, as the second son of Kyoumatsu, it has been decided that I become the son-in-law [marrying into the girl’s family] of Utae’s family that has a gofuku [other name of kimono] at the capital city. Although, the first impression isn’t quite good..”