Then, her cellphone is ringing. She looks at it. It is an email from Fuyu asking, “Is your foot okay? Short-legged mushroom girl.” Mairu wonders why he knows about her sprain. She is startled when there is another email. Fuyu says that Tenyuu told him but for other things than that, she can relax for he didn’t ask about it but regarding what had happened, he can pretty much guess it. Aghast Mairu thinks that ugh..after all, the first one to notice it was Fuyu and furthermore, he noticed it earlier than her own self-awareness. Fuyu asks if she is alright. With a subject of ‘truly thank you very much’, Mairu replies that she is fine, she felt thoroughly relaxed after being rejected so sorry for making him worry about her. Fuyu writes back, “Liar. Do not pretend that you are alright. Obviously you cannot pretend. It is that-side-of yours that really infuriates me.” This shocks and irks Mairu. She wonders what’s up with this person, she doesn’t want to make him worry that even if she has no energy she also wanted to pretend that she has a bit of energy. “Since it is like this, I had-enough!! I’ll just complain everything to you!!” Mairu quickly types, “Yes, yes! It is like that!! I’m pretending as if I’m alright!! Obviously I’m forcing myself. Actually, I’m really super disappointed! Because he told me, ‘My and Mairu’s like[/love] isn’t the same’ ‘I don’t have that kind of feelings towards you’ I’m totally rejected!! This is the darkest part of my life!! Quite perplexed!! It really hurts. Painful.” Mairu sighs and thinks, “How about that!! I gave my entire bad mood to you!!” Fuyu replies, “Is that so, ah, it is inevitable.” This shocks Mairu again that she wonders what’s up with this, she doesn’t understand.. He tells her to look outside. Puzzled Mairu goes to the window and sees Fuyu standing outside in the snow while holding his cellphone. She is surprised. He emails her again, and says that she injured her foot so don’t come out. “I only wanted to see you so I came.” Mairu is surprised again. Fuyu writes again, “Do not pretend again that you are alright. Go ahead and cry.” Mairu starts to sob. While Fuyu looks at her, Mairu thinks, “I’ve cried like a child. While it is snowing, he didn’t send another message. He always stood there until I stopped crying. Like this, Fuyu always stayed at my side.”
Comment: Mairu’s monologue in the pillow pretty much summarizes the pain of rejection. Airu tried to be a good brother and listen out to her but she is really not in the mood to talk. Actually, it can be embarrassing to tell one’s brother that you just got rejected. I’m not sure of their relationship since I’ve skipped a lot of chapters but somehow, I get a feeling that Airu might laugh at her. ^^;; And, since Airu is more into studies, I don’t think he can comfort her. About the brave sacrifice thing, the meaning of the word used can also mean ‘die like a hero’, ‘heroically gives one’s life’ or ‘martyr’. Given what he told Fuyu, I think it might meant that Tenyuu is going to sacrifice his friendship for Mairu to move on and find the one who would really love her. But re-reading it, it seems to apply to Mairu so it might be confess = fail -> die. ^^;; I think Tenyuu means well to get Fuyu to go to Mairu so I’m not quite sure why Fuyu scolded him that this isn’t being considerate. Perhaps, not for Fuyu as if he is some sort of second choice for Mairu? Maybe like making someone else remedy something that he caused to happen? Anyway, in the last few pages, Fuyu pretty much show that he can be there for her even if he did irritate her enough to make her release her pain and sadness by crying rather than suppressing it. Well, that is good for Mairu. That scene increased the possibility that Fuyu might be the one for her. Scans by 夜莺工作室
Word of the day:
When God permits trials, He also provides comfort. ~ Our Daily Bread.