Kanojo wa Uso wo Aishisugiteru [Chapter 71]

And the blushing fans squeal and wave at CP. Flustered Aki continues to play the bass. Tears continue to fall from Shinya’s eyes. Then, Riko arrives and stands a bit in front of Shinya. She blushes in excitement as she watches Aki play. She wonders what to do, what to do, her heart is suddenly tightening, because her heart’s trembling and her eardrums are vibrating. “Obviously, I want to concentrate in listening to the music’s melody but, I couldn’t stop trembling. This is Aki’s sound. It is Aki’s sound. It’s Aki’s sound.” Then, Soichiro and Miwako arrive. Miwako notices Shinya crying by the side. After the song finishes, Shun thanks everyone. He says that even if it is already the third time that they had a tour at Kagawa so how many people here came for Crude Play’s Live for the first time? Some fans are holding up their hands.

Shun exclaims that there are so many so how is Crude Play’s live performance. The fans scream that it is super cool and really amazing. Shun laughs and says ya, he knows♡ Kaoru says that only Shun would say those kind of words. Shun denies it but both Kaoru and Teppei says that it is obviously so. Blushing Riko holds her hands together and looks at Aki. Then, as her heart continues to beat fast, she somewhat bows down. Shinya glances at Riko and closes his eyes. He quickly grabs hold of the door handle and left. Shun is already telling the audience that their next song is, ‘Awake or Fast Asleep’. As the door closes, Miwako starts to rush out the door but Soichiro stops her. He apologizes and says that he’ll go. While Shinya is walking downstairs, Soichiro is following him from behind. Sensing him, Shinya stops walking and asks if it is alright for him to come out like this.

He turns to look at smug Soichiro and asks, “Could it be that you’re not at all impatient in wanting to see Aki standing onstage that you had happily rushed over here?” Soichiro takes out a cigarette and lights it up. He replies, “..Nope. I’m worried about you so I came. *Shinya looks surprised* ..besides, it is the same with Aki.” Back in the stadium, Shun is happily singing. Fans are happily squealing. Aki continues to look flustered while playing. Aki thinks that he probably had some kind of sickness, right. “Self-conceding personality disorder? Wrong, it is not at all that kind of serious ailment, right. Because my situation is not at all a reason to deny myself..” Back outside, Soichiro asks serious Shinya, “Have you properly figured it out? Without Shinya, Crude Play will disband.” There’s a scene of CP members happily playing except for Aki.

Shinya says that he had heard that sound yet he would say these words. “That thoroughly terrible bass performance that is filled with mistakes! *scene of Riko slightly dancing to the music* ..but, it is a sound that can make people endlessly excited. *flustered* I cannot play that out. Truly cunning. No matter what mistake, it seems that from the start, it is already like that. ..that is the original music’s light that only the composer can play it out. In the end, compared to anyone, Aki understands the strong points of the music.” Soichiro replies, “But during composition, could it be that Aki didn’t compose it with the premise of Shinya’s bass? *Shinya looks surprised* The main [/important] one is that guy. Isn’t he also unable to tolerate this thing that cannot sound out Shinya’s melody?”

As Aki continues to play, he wonders, “About my sound, the feeling of incredibly liking it, as well as, how come I can only regrettably play like this. It makes me really hate myself so much so that I have a feeling of wanting to immediately run away from this place. But, in my heart, deep in my heart, I also hope that I can be approved of. By whom. *image of Shinya playing* I hope to be able to get your approval. When I’m making a demo recording, I always filled with anticipation that you’ll tell me, ‘isn’t it good to just keep the current melody’ but I’m also very uselessly send you a message to tell you, ‘If you want to change it, it is also totally no problem.’ *recalls looking at how flustered Shinya looked that he left the stadium* That kind of situation is an expression that you cannot continue to listen to it so you left like that. Anyway, it isn’t for Shinya that I make music. That time when his father collapsed, there was a friend who is happy that I’m merely standing at his side. *Aki glances at Shun who smiles back* But how come it is like this. Why. In this feverish atmosphere, gradually, gradually, how come I *looks up the stadium* How come from the bottom of my heart, I felt that this sound is not at all Crude Play’s”

Comment: Ah..it’s really hard to be a genius to music. Aki didn’t know of how his playing makes people excited and how he brings out what’s good about the song but then he isn’t the type to be happy over a crappy performance. Instead of being happy about entertaining the fans and making Shun happy for being at his side, Aki must have been feeling a bit of inferiority and this is pretty much torture to him. Only he and Soichiro know the difference in CP music without Shinya. It makes me think that Aki got Soichiro’s music sense while Shinya got the ‘how to’ of the industry. The two are indeed opposites yet envying what the other has. If only they are satisfied with each other’s talents, they won’t be tormenting themselves this much. With his playing, as a genius composer, I wonder if Aki would go into a slump if he’ll have to take over as CP’s bass. He is already sensing that it isn’t CP music. The fans are all excited and everything that they don’t really notice the difference. Even Shinya thinks that it is okay. Maybe Riko can pep talk Aki about his playing that would change his mind about he views it. Or, Shinya to come back to the concert? I’m not sure if this can be resolved the same way with the composition wherein Aki revised Shinya’s work. About Soichiro, I’m not sure if he is really concerned about the two or CP’s future but then, he is indeed saying things that can make Shinya realize that he’s also important to CP. That is something he can say quite convincingly and those are the words that Shinya probably wants to hear the most. It would be nice if Soichiro become more of a mentor for the two rather than the boss who is doing things only for profit. So, we have two possibilities as cause of the disbanding, will it be either of the two, both, or something else? Scans by 红莲&wink炖蘑菇汉化组

Quote of the day:

The reason why we struggle with insecurity is because we compare our behind the scenes with everyone else’s highlight reel. ~ Steven Furtick